alley
June 30th, 2011, 08:24 AM
I am 14 (15 in a few weeks), and I generally hang out with people ages 15 - 17, and have been doing so for over a year.
It's not that I don't get on with people my own age - I do, I just prefer hanging out with older people. Anyway, in the past two months my two best guy friends (let's call them steve and peter) who are both 16 introduced me too some more people, who I hadn't really socialised with before. They all seem nice and we get on well, and the majority of them are also male.
So after a few weeks of hanging out with everyone, 'Peter' started making jokes about how I am too young too hang out with them. I was fine with this, I mean, it's simply a joke. However it went on for around 2 weeks, and it really started to piss me off. I hear it enough from my parents, whom think I'm too advanced for my age, etc. All they judge this on is my little age tag, of 14, which really has nothing too do with anything, it just is a little representation, it doesn't tell anyone anything about your maturity levels.
So I snapped at 'Peter', as I was fed up of hearing this joke. Sometimes looking back I feel it wasn't a joke, and he was geunially pissed that I hung out with them. He took it badly and didn't talk too me for around 2 weeks, despite me apologising. I didn't even snap that badly.
Anyway, last night 'Peter', had a real go at me. Lately I have been complaining about my parents alot, and he had a go at me for that. He has had a bad upbringing with his parents, I won't go into details, and he felt I was being selfish for complaining about my parents all the time...
This maddens me, quite honestly. My mum suffers from depression and bi-poplar, and it has put a massive strain on me and my dad. It depresses me too. My parents are on the edge of a divorce also, and the tension in my house is at optimum level. He doesn't know this of course. No one knows this. The complaints I was making were trivial anyway; simple ones that teenagers say about their parents. Yet he took it badly.
He also had a go at me for apparently trying to 'act' cool around older people, and how I am extremely fake and have different personalities. I told him in response to this that I act myself around them, and always have. He replied 'bullshit'. He said everyone in the group felt this but when I asked the others they said they didn't.
In the end, I grovelled for forgiveness, and apologised several times to him. this is because I didn't want to fall out with him, as it would mean falling out with everyone. He eventually forgave me but is now still off with me and says I need to 'grow up' and 'change'.
I walked home in tears and cut myself over him later. This happened last night, and this morning all I have done is mope around. My mum has yelled at me several times and reckons I'm depressed, or whatever. I now feel a real sense of despair.
I don't want to lose 'Peter'. We have been best friends for over a year and I don't know why he's suddenly turned on me. It all started with me snapping back at his so called 'jokes', which I serverly regret.
I feel so upset right now. I want to be friends with everyone, and I thought I was doing nothing wrong. Please, as a second opinion, could someone tell me whose in the wrong here? Because I really don't understand how I am at all.
It's not that I don't get on with people my own age - I do, I just prefer hanging out with older people. Anyway, in the past two months my two best guy friends (let's call them steve and peter) who are both 16 introduced me too some more people, who I hadn't really socialised with before. They all seem nice and we get on well, and the majority of them are also male.
So after a few weeks of hanging out with everyone, 'Peter' started making jokes about how I am too young too hang out with them. I was fine with this, I mean, it's simply a joke. However it went on for around 2 weeks, and it really started to piss me off. I hear it enough from my parents, whom think I'm too advanced for my age, etc. All they judge this on is my little age tag, of 14, which really has nothing too do with anything, it just is a little representation, it doesn't tell anyone anything about your maturity levels.
So I snapped at 'Peter', as I was fed up of hearing this joke. Sometimes looking back I feel it wasn't a joke, and he was geunially pissed that I hung out with them. He took it badly and didn't talk too me for around 2 weeks, despite me apologising. I didn't even snap that badly.
Anyway, last night 'Peter', had a real go at me. Lately I have been complaining about my parents alot, and he had a go at me for that. He has had a bad upbringing with his parents, I won't go into details, and he felt I was being selfish for complaining about my parents all the time...
This maddens me, quite honestly. My mum suffers from depression and bi-poplar, and it has put a massive strain on me and my dad. It depresses me too. My parents are on the edge of a divorce also, and the tension in my house is at optimum level. He doesn't know this of course. No one knows this. The complaints I was making were trivial anyway; simple ones that teenagers say about their parents. Yet he took it badly.
He also had a go at me for apparently trying to 'act' cool around older people, and how I am extremely fake and have different personalities. I told him in response to this that I act myself around them, and always have. He replied 'bullshit'. He said everyone in the group felt this but when I asked the others they said they didn't.
In the end, I grovelled for forgiveness, and apologised several times to him. this is because I didn't want to fall out with him, as it would mean falling out with everyone. He eventually forgave me but is now still off with me and says I need to 'grow up' and 'change'.
I walked home in tears and cut myself over him later. This happened last night, and this morning all I have done is mope around. My mum has yelled at me several times and reckons I'm depressed, or whatever. I now feel a real sense of despair.
I don't want to lose 'Peter'. We have been best friends for over a year and I don't know why he's suddenly turned on me. It all started with me snapping back at his so called 'jokes', which I serverly regret.
I feel so upset right now. I want to be friends with everyone, and I thought I was doing nothing wrong. Please, as a second opinion, could someone tell me whose in the wrong here? Because I really don't understand how I am at all.