Cut for the first time in over a year

[SilenceForSilence]

I wanted to write because the other night i self harmed not bad, but It was enough to bleed because i didn't stop myself, so I consider that real self harm. It's been over a year since I actually cut, but two weeks ago, I started to but put the knife away before I broke the skin. Again what I did the other night isn't bad at all. I just don't even care that I blew my record of abstinence, and It was totally worth it for some reason. I kind of want to start regularly again, but something tells me that's a dumb idea (that something is common sense btw), and I don't know if I will or not. What I wrote this for is I'm wondering why you guys might think I don't even care that I cut?

[anonymous53]

I kind of got to that point, but it's not worth it. You can get back to a year :)

[love is louder]

You dont want to get back on that slippery slope john! i dont think i have ever spoken to you but i can imagine it was horrible quitting? and a year is such a long time to just give up! i have been stopped for just over three weeks (until yesterday) and i am thoroughly mortified with myself.

Do you not regret doing it at all?
Why did you do it again after soo long (if you dont mind me askin)?

[sarahtheweber]

I do recommend quitting. You seem strong enough to do it! I haven't cut for almost 5 months (until last week) and I think you can do a year, or more, again!! :yes: And for not caring, maybe it felt so good to get back in it that you didn't care that you were cutting again?

[SilenceForSilence]

The silly thing is that I don't regret that I cut. It doesn't even bother me at all. I know that the only reason I quit in the first place was because I was going out with this girl who would cut if I would, so I made myself stop. Now that we're broken up, there's not really any motivation, and I was only putting the fact that it's been over a year for the record, but i'm not really into counting my streak of not cutting, because my cutting doesn't really bother me. I don't know. I never cut so bad that I was at any real risk, so maybe that's why.

[Chris25]

I read the Name of this thread and it killed my inside... Ik how it feels to go so long and start bak up again... I only went weeks but a year and cutting again just like idk makes me hurt.. I wouod recomend trying to stop b4 it becomes a habit again.. If u need sone1 to talk to u can always message me:) i dont judge and i just wanna help

[DJZS]

Dont start again, Message me if want to talk about it.