Help...

[sarahtheweber]

I've been trying to stop cutting for a while now, but its so hard.... I don't know if I can do it. I've run out of options...

[anonymous53]

I think you can do it, have you tried any other coping methods?

[sarahtheweber]

Kinda... My BF had ways of trying to help me, like we'd talk it out and that'd make me cut less, but now my dad doesn't ever want me to see my bf again and it hurts... Texting the problems does not work and now my cuts seem to be escalating.....

[anonymous53]

It's really not worth it to cut. Is there any way you can get help? A teacher to talk to?

Maybe go for a run, or use a rubber band? There are plenty of things that will keep you from cutting. Music, incense etc.. anything to get your mind off it

[sarahtheweber]

I tried talking to people, but they freaking judged too much... Then they held it over my head and used it as blackmail, so... People are out. My dad really doesn't let me out of the house, so thats out. All I have to comfort me are my blades and knives....... They're all that helps...

[anonymous53]

You're not allowed out of the house? Well, just so you know you can always message me.

Try doing exercises. Exercises help :)

[sarahtheweber]

I'll try. But I don't think it'll work... The only thing is- I can't pm yet and I'm usually not allowed on message boards at home... its a dad thing...

[User Deleted]

A good way to stop cutting is to think of how scary it really is. Make yourself fear the consequences of a mishap. How deep you could cut and how much it could hurt. How easily someone could startle you and it could turn it into a stab. Then think of the good of stopping. A lost addiction. No more hiding scars. No more potential slipping up. Lastly try staying around people who you would not cut around, don't lock your door unless necessary, leave it open if possible.

[sarahtheweber]

I've already accepted all the concequences. I know what I've gotten into. I know its bad for me, but it feels too good to stop. I had a choice it was either this or take all my dad's meds and see what happens. I chose the safer of the two... Now that I've lived some mor, I'd rather cut than Die...

[User Deleted]

You can stop cutting and not die. Things will always get better and I strongly encourage you to remember that. Try not to accept the consequences. Think long term and logically.

[sarahtheweber]

I try to... Long term for me is- stop cutting for an amount of time, then come back even worse, or keep cutting at a steady rate... That's happened multiple times before...

[User Deleted]

But think of how hard this will get, the longer you go, the more addicted you get, the less you care, the higher the risk, all just for some short term instant gratification that hurts at that. It's not worth it, if you can stay in the most public areas you can be at, weather it the living room, the mall, anywhere you wont cut.

[sarahtheweber]

That's not completely true... I cut at school quite a lot and its public... I try to stop, but I can't. Not even when my friend blackmailed me did I stop...

[anonymous53]

It's not worth it for the short term help it provides. Trust me, I know. Just be strong :)

[sarahtheweber]

Strength... I used to have it... Haha... Idk anymore...

[anonymous53]

Everyone has it, you just have to want to stop :)

[sarahtheweber]

True... I've kinda made the decision in my head, but subconsiously, idk if i can let go

[anonymous53]

You can do it :) Throw out all your blades. You don't need them :)

[sarahtheweber]

I kinda can't throw all of them out... Some of the things i use are knives that have been in our family for forever... With those there, I can't stop...

[anonymous53]

I think you can stop. You can always stop as long as you *want* to enough. Have you tried art?

[User Deleted]

I have an idea! Take all of your knives. Then take a key. Lock them up in a box and give someone you really trust the key. Once you no longer have an urge to cut ask for the key back, BUT still don't open the box unless you want to give another family member the knives.

[sarahtheweber]

I put the knives in a safe place, where I couldn't get them, but then I needed a release... I got the blades out of a razor for shaving and used those... One new one on my wrist...

[User Deleted]

But lock it. Then once you don't have the key its not an option.

[anonymous53]

Sarah, this cutting, it's truely not worth it. You can make it without it. :)

[User Deleted]

Agreed, you can make it without cutting. If you feel an absolute need try something else that helps... maybe gaming? That has always been my solution. Now I know gaming to relive stress can be addicting (I speak from experience) but it is better than cutting.

[Chris25]

I wouldnt recommend locking them up because like what happened to u.. The urges buult uP and u probably did more damage when u were stressed from not cutting and stressed from getting the blade from the razor.. I would reccomend keeping ur blade(s) in one spot not locked but somewhere where it will take time to get to them so u hav time to think to stop urself.. Just my thoughts..

[sarahtheweber]

I wish I could do this... IDK if I can stop... It hurts too much to stop... Within the past three days, three cuts have formed. Each one deeper than the last... It felt SOOO good...

[anonymous53]

Please, stop while you can. You're not at a bad point.

You still can *stop*

[sarahtheweber]

How can I stop when it feels so good?... Why can something this good apear so bad...

[anonymous53]

You have to stop, I know it feels great. Boy, do I know it feels great, but look to the future. These scars can permanently damage first impressions on bosses and coworkers. You need to stop while you can.

It's an addiction like any other, but you can beat it. Just set goals and force yourself to reach them. Try a week, then a month, then two months etc till you haven't cut :) You can do it. There i so much more than cutting.

[sarahtheweber]

Why has nothing helped... Why???? I've made a decision, but should I do it??? hmmmmmmmmmm...

[Skyhawk]

Made what decision, if you could explain? =\

[sarahtheweber]

There are actually two decisions. One is to end it all. to be done with this crappy thing I call a life. To give into the ever building maddness. To let the mental abuse take what it wants.... The other is much harder. Its to stop everything and live.