It seems like I can't do anything right

[Twistember]

I try to help my mom by cleaning, I dust the tv wrong. I try to make up for it by baking a cake, I mess that up too. I try to tell someone how I feel, I can't get the words out. I try to express my anger in a gentle way, I mess that up. I try to teach my 'little sis' the moves, another teamate goes behind my back and 'helps' her.

I tell people I can toss a heavier flag, "No you cant. You're not strong enough." "You can't do it. you're too weak." "But you have spaghetti arms."

"No, you're not loud enough. I'll talk for you." "You're voice is too quiet." "Um, excuse me, can you speak up?" "You're just too quiet." "Why don't you ever talk?" "TALK MORE."

I can't do this. I can't do that. I can't do anything right.

I just want to hack at my stomach and pull all my guts out and throw them at people and then die.

I don't want to be alive anymore.

/rant

[sarahtheweber]

Aw... Cat, I know you feel like that, but other people still love you for you! I've felt like that before and it took a couple of good friends to help me. We had a convo and I started doing kinda better. You can always tell people how you feel about what they say. That might help some.

[ItStOuGhEnOuGh4Us]

Cat, I have never spoken to you before, but I will say this. Stay Strong! and NEVER let anyone bring you down EVER!. Be strong and stand up and shout it to the moon.