I'm repressing one of those urges

[MadManWithaBox]

To rip this already massive cut open. And I don't know why. I was happy. But now I just want to rip my stupid fucking self open and bleed to death to atone for all the bad things I comitted. Fucking hell.

[anonymous53]

Matt, you didn't do bad things. You've had a really *hard* life and you've done what you had to do to get through. You've had a much harder life than anyone I know. Avoid the urges to reopen this cut, keep surviving Matt.

[Lethe]

You're the last person to have done anything wrong :). Please don't hurt yourself!

[MadManWithaBox]

I can't stop thinking about it though. I'm not even sure why. I have her, she's so.... mine. And important to me. But all I can think of is ripping the stitches out, which I've already done this week, and using the razor to extend this all the way up to my shoulder.

[Love.Hate]

I can't stop thinking about it though. I'm not even sure why. I have her, she's so.... mine. And important to me. But all I can think of is ripping the stitches out, which I've already done this week, and using the razor to extend this all the way up to my shoulder.

Matt but dont you want it to heal? So you can get it covered.. I know that feeling all too well, i want to rip mine open right now. But you cant, you hate having the stitches redone, so why put yourself through that again and again?

Your not a bad person, you have had a fucking terrible life. But you have come through it, yes the memories are still there, but at least your not living through it again, your never going to have to go through it again. All those people were sick, they were the fucked up ones not you. They are the poison.

<3