Maeria
June 28th, 2011, 02:20 PM
A year ago, I was removed from my home because of abuse. My parents had to go to therapy/counseling/anger management.
My aunt took me in, but just a month ago I realized she didn't really care about my well being, and she always rubbed it in my parents' faces that I was getting worse, and I dropped out of school, and everything I did was just horrible. She never knew how to deal with stress, so she always overate and always hoarded food. I'm pretty sure she's well over 280 lbs. I always told her to stop but she wouldn't. She'd always act like a bitch to me for no reason and I wouldn't even respond. She would always argue, give me immature texts that remind me of high school drama, and I just for some reason, found very creepy and odd.
This whole entire time, I lost almost all my friends, I got in a really crappy relationship, ended up getting dumped because the guy left me for another girl. My dad still blames me for being depressed, I never knew how to cope, ended up in the hospital, and I became antisocial and dropped out of school.
Just yesterday my parents gained back custody of me in court, and I was alright with it. They seem to be changing, at least trying, and I know they wouldn't hurt me. But my aunt was angry the whole entire time. She didn't seem supportive. She was angry that I was doing better at my parents' place, and I was getting help for my education. She seems like she's trying to win me back by signing me up for classes and programs so I can join more activities.
On the other hand, I'm sort of a recovering self-harmer and I've always had suicidal thoughts and I do stupid shit. I don't even know why, but I called my ex, and I just couldn't help myself. I don't even know why I want sex. I just kept coming back for more, but he wouldn't love me back. I just don't even know who to trust or what to do. I feel helpless and I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like my aunt is trying to make my life worse, I still don't want to be close to my dad, and I don't know how to get over all this other shit I didn't list. I just feel traumatized. I really don't know what to do anymore.
Somebody please help
My aunt took me in, but just a month ago I realized she didn't really care about my well being, and she always rubbed it in my parents' faces that I was getting worse, and I dropped out of school, and everything I did was just horrible. She never knew how to deal with stress, so she always overate and always hoarded food. I'm pretty sure she's well over 280 lbs. I always told her to stop but she wouldn't. She'd always act like a bitch to me for no reason and I wouldn't even respond. She would always argue, give me immature texts that remind me of high school drama, and I just for some reason, found very creepy and odd.
This whole entire time, I lost almost all my friends, I got in a really crappy relationship, ended up getting dumped because the guy left me for another girl. My dad still blames me for being depressed, I never knew how to cope, ended up in the hospital, and I became antisocial and dropped out of school.
Just yesterday my parents gained back custody of me in court, and I was alright with it. They seem to be changing, at least trying, and I know they wouldn't hurt me. But my aunt was angry the whole entire time. She didn't seem supportive. She was angry that I was doing better at my parents' place, and I was getting help for my education. She seems like she's trying to win me back by signing me up for classes and programs so I can join more activities.
On the other hand, I'm sort of a recovering self-harmer and I've always had suicidal thoughts and I do stupid shit. I don't even know why, but I called my ex, and I just couldn't help myself. I don't even know why I want sex. I just kept coming back for more, but he wouldn't love me back. I just don't even know who to trust or what to do. I feel helpless and I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like my aunt is trying to make my life worse, I still don't want to be close to my dad, and I don't know how to get over all this other shit I didn't list. I just feel traumatized. I really don't know what to do anymore.
Somebody please help