terrible

[morbidmonkey]

i hate a lot of things. lately i've been hating myself too. i hate how i look sometimes, i hate my attitude and i hate that i hurt people. u kno they say vengeance is sweet? well its like that. when somebody hurts me, i try to hurt them back, but then i have a violent war with my subconcious. one side says u shouldve have done anything, the other side says it feels good doesn't it? i'm just confused all the time and i break down and have a lovely cutting spree. i'm so pathetic...but then there are a lot of other poepl who just aggravate me and drive me into the state....ARGHHHH
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[Iris]

You're not pathetic you're just going through a really hard time. It's difficult to know exactly what's right and what's wrong, and it's something you can spend your whole life trying to figure out. You're being very hard on yourself :/
Also try to stay away from people who aggravate you because unless you're willing to sit down and talk to them about it, they're not going to stop. For me my mother always messes me up when I talk to her, so I'm very careful not to be near her as much as possible. Take some time to pull yourself together and realize that you're not perfect, and part of life includes doing things that you'll regret (like hurting people), and that you need to accept that.