He's Gone... It's my fault

[smalltowngirl9189]

My loooooong time best friend just comitted suicide today! He told me I was the only one who could stop him. I was in the middle of church so I went running outside of the service to call him and it was too late!! I have no idea what to do! I wanna do the same thing!

[Thanatos]

Jordan's right. It's tragic that it happened but you need to know that its not your fault. You did everything you could to stop him, but in the end it was still his choice.

On the topic of you wanting to do the same, think of how you feel now. If you did this, you would be condemning all those who know and love you to feel the same way that you do at the moment.

[brokengirl16]

awwwww no dont dare blame yourself wasnt your fault u didnt make it in time if he was living a bad life he must of been to kill himself just think no matter how much its hurting you now he might actually be happy as after all its what he wanting -HUG&KISSES stay strong for him.xxx

[CyanideGoodnight]

It's NOT your fault, I don't know you but I know you did your best to call him in time, the fact you didn't is not anyone's fault. Don't do the same, stay strong for him, he would of wanted you to have a good life.

Also, this is a little unrelated, but I had a friend who died in 06 of a hit and run, but to me, she never died as I kept her alive in my heart, so maybe you can find it in yourself to think of it like that?

[Iris]

That's so horrible I'm so sorry :( Don't do anything now, you just suffered a tragedy and you need time to cry and let it all out. You're not thinking straight. Give yourself time to get through this.

[Lethe]

Please don't blame yourself for your friend's death :(. It is not your fault. Although he said that you were the only one who could stop him, it was ultimately his own decision to take his life. Don't burden yourself with guilt. It wasn't your fault and it never will be. I don't believe your friend would want you to suffer like that, even though he said you could have saved him. You did your best and as I already said, it was his own decision. Not yours.

[smalltowngirl9189]

Okay well it turns out his parents read his messages and now isn't even allowing me to the funeral. They are all blaming it on me.. I just wanna crawl into a corner and shrivel up and die to be honest and thank you guys I'm just really lost right now. Heres alittle bit about my friend:
Grew up since we were 2 together, we dated but decided it didn't feel right even though deep down I wanted to be in his arms forever. He got diagnosised with pancreatic cancer 3-4 months ago. I was the only one who would go to chemo with him and be there 24/7 if he wanted me there or not. He told me a few weeks ago he wished all this was over and I tld him well if you're thinking about doing what I think you are you better not. He promised me he wouldn't and then well read my first post ^^^ and you will know from there.

I really miss him! :(