Searching for something?

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

I have no idea why, but I feel like crying a lot recently. In fear of sounding corny and like a shitty poet or angsty attention seeker, there's like a hollow ache in my chest. But not a really pain, the kind of ache when I just want to cry. But there's nothing that's upset me. At least, nothing that I can think of. And because of that I think imaginary ache, I can't concentrate. Its like I'm searching for something and I won't be able to concentrate until I find it. What "it" is however, I've no idea. It's like I'm not content in myself and I can't really feel any emotion apart from this sorrowful loneliness. I don't know what's wrong with me. What am I seeking?

I don't know if this is posted in the right section, but I feel like this was the most appropriate place to put it.

[MadManWithaBox]

You're looking for that other emotion. You're wanting to prove your still human, by feeling... feelings. Even if they hurt. You don't know how yet though, you're groping in the darkness. But thats ok, we've all been there. The aches, they're the emotional pain. You need to let your pain, and numbness out, by talking about it. To us, or a therapist, whatever. Its all part of the healing process.

[PoisonedRazorBlades]

Half the time I don't know what to say though. I have tried to talk about it, but forming the words and getting them out takes an insane amount of effort and I usually give up, thinking that there's no point.