can't take it

[morbidmonkey]

my humanity is being ripped apart. my friends are silently turning their backs on me. is it wrong to be all sad because something bad happened and is still happening? they act like that, but they dont understand. and i know some people would think i'm over exaggerating but she says i'm a poser just because i haven't been myself lately. it seems i really cant tell anyone with my mom always pushing me to tell her something. AW FUCK IT. i'm gonna kill myself, take away my pathetic life

[SosbanFach]

You shouldn't kill yourself, you have to stick it through. If you go, it could potentially destroy the lives of so many close to you. Your mum wants you to tell her what's happening because she loves you. She may have noticed changes in you of late, and they may be concerning her. You need to sit down and talk to someone about it. I have heard on the radio the sound of mothers who have lost their spouse on the radio, and while never in their presence, that sound will stay with me for my whole life. Sometimes the only thing stopping me going is the thought of what it would do to my family. Please reconsider; it could tear your mother apart if you died. You need to tell someone how you feel.

[Magenta]

Deep down, you know that taking your own life is not worth it. I lie awake at night thinking about my friends (or lack thereof at the moment) and all the horrible things in my life and things that have happened and I know I can't do it. A close friend to me told me I'll never truly know what I'm worth and what the world has in store for me.

If you ever need to talk, leave me a VM or you can find my contact details on my profile. :) :hug:

[kylenike]

hey if you ever need anything you can message me

[mendaciousness]

Honestly, I know how you feel. I've gone through so many friends who I thought were going to be there all of my life. I've tried a few attempts at suicide. Obviously they've failed. I don't want those few who do care about me to have to deal with thinking of me as leaving that way. No matter what, there's someone you know you don't want to hurt. And you know that killing yourself will hurt them. It might seem like your last resort or an easy way out of the pain you're feeling. But it's not. It's going to cause more pain for those around you. Please don't. Everything will get better.
If you ever need anything, you're welcome to message me. I'll try my best to listen.

[Lethe]

Please don't kill yourself :(. Your life is precious to someone, and it is a miracle in itself. Don't take that miracle away.

[morbidmonkey]

thanks for ur help...i'll tell her something....eventually