Maeria
June 23rd, 2011, 03:39 AM
I'm sorry if this is a "too long don't read" sort of thing, but I've been in a ranty mood and looking for advice.
Ever since that abuse incident with my father last year, I was looking for someone to love me. Strange and corny.
I've been in a couple (first was bad and some-what manipulative) relationships, and then I met this guy, let's say his name was Nick. Well, Nick was really charming, and had bad English because he was from another country. I had a crush on him for 3 months and didn't know his name, he came up to me and asked me out.
We were together for 3-4 months, but he kept breaking up with me so it was off and on. I found out he had another girlfriend in his home country the whole time. We ended up having sex a lot, while he had another girlfriend. Basically, I let him laugh at me while I had cuts all over my arms, and I was so crazy in love with him. I did end up in the hospital a couple times for suicide attempts, but he didn't even really..give a crap. He treated me so bad, and he would always just put me down. He wasn't like that before. And I kept running back to him. I stopped. He would say, oh I really don't care or give a shit about you or think about having sex with you, but when I'm in his bed, it's a whole other story.
I met another guy whom I had a crush on and I kissed, but it turns out he was only using me for some stupid reasons.. rebound fail
Nicks' mother supposedly passed away in his home country, and so he goes back. He calls me, but he sounds happy.. I don't know why. He doesn't have any remorse or sadness when I bring up his mother, so it seems. I don't even want him to call me, and I'm controlling myself from calling him.
So I facebook stalk him, and I see a picture of him and his girlfriend as a profile picture. He comes back to the US and lies to me that he shaved his head(wore this beanie to school that covered his hair) iderno why. We only spoke briefly over the phone, and he tells me he wants to hang out with me. Last minute, literally, he tells me he's going to SEATTLE.
Only I find out, he isn't in Seattle. But in his home country with his other girlfriend.
Yeah, so how do I get over this?
Ever since that abuse incident with my father last year, I was looking for someone to love me. Strange and corny.
I've been in a couple (first was bad and some-what manipulative) relationships, and then I met this guy, let's say his name was Nick. Well, Nick was really charming, and had bad English because he was from another country. I had a crush on him for 3 months and didn't know his name, he came up to me and asked me out.
We were together for 3-4 months, but he kept breaking up with me so it was off and on. I found out he had another girlfriend in his home country the whole time. We ended up having sex a lot, while he had another girlfriend. Basically, I let him laugh at me while I had cuts all over my arms, and I was so crazy in love with him. I did end up in the hospital a couple times for suicide attempts, but he didn't even really..give a crap. He treated me so bad, and he would always just put me down. He wasn't like that before. And I kept running back to him. I stopped. He would say, oh I really don't care or give a shit about you or think about having sex with you, but when I'm in his bed, it's a whole other story.
I met another guy whom I had a crush on and I kissed, but it turns out he was only using me for some stupid reasons.. rebound fail
Nicks' mother supposedly passed away in his home country, and so he goes back. He calls me, but he sounds happy.. I don't know why. He doesn't have any remorse or sadness when I bring up his mother, so it seems. I don't even want him to call me, and I'm controlling myself from calling him.
So I facebook stalk him, and I see a picture of him and his girlfriend as a profile picture. He comes back to the US and lies to me that he shaved his head(wore this beanie to school that covered his hair) iderno why. We only spoke briefly over the phone, and he tells me he wants to hang out with me. Last minute, literally, he tells me he's going to SEATTLE.
Only I find out, he isn't in Seattle. But in his home country with his other girlfriend.
Yeah, so how do I get over this?