Stupid, Stupid, Stupid.

[Spook]

Lots of mistakes.

1. Alchohol
2. Drugs
3. Sex
4. Sex without a condom
5. Me

Well, obviously if you don't use a condom theres a good chance you are going to get a baby, right? I guess you got knocked up with all the drugs and jack to think straight. You were too young- 19 to take care of me. You just didn't think and I have the right to say that line: Stupid, stupid, stupid. You made 5 mistakes. Well, 6 if you count NOT FUCKING KNOWING WHO THE HELL MY FATHER IS!!!

Well, that doesn't matter, does it? I'm with someone else now, and you live in a trailer. You really should think before you act.

And maybe I'm not black.

[User Deleted]

I'm afraid I don't fully understand :(

[Spook]

Yeahhh I guess I owe VT an explanation. I'll start off before I was born. My mom was a junkie- addicted to illegal drugs (crack, heroin, etc.), she smoked cigs all the time, drank alot. She was a mess. 19 years old, and had nothing better to do then take a snort and have sex all day. Well, one guy came around, forgot his balloon, and BOOM! There I was. Of course, with all the guys she brought around she didn't have a clue who the dad was. Took her best guess- 1/2 black 1/2 white dude, ran off and never saw her again. So it went on the papers, and I became a mixed race, 1/4 black. Of course...I didn't have a DNA test or anything and to this day I could be mexican and not have a clue with all the guys she was banging. So...she gave birth to me, then put me up for adoption. I'm glad for that, of course- I wouldn't want to have to be living in a trailer with a junkie and alchoholic. She claimed when she found out I was in the over that I was a "hero" and I stopped her from using, but you know how addicts are. A little to late though, huh? I've had kidney surgery, a distended bowel, asthma, control issues, OCD, sleep disorders, you name it, I have it. All because of her stupid pleasure in drugs. It screws up lives. So..yeah. Story of my life.

And...I have a feeling my birthdad was guessed wrong as I'm as white as milk. Been that way since birth.

[User Deleted]

I'm really sorry :hug: I always hated non-medical drugs. Now all what you were saying makes sense. So this just getting things off your head or do you want any advice ;)

[Spook]

Just getting it off my head's all. But thanks. :)

[User Deleted]

You're welcome :D I just like to help when I can. Anyways just a little tidbit of advice you may (or may not) want to save up once you get a job for a blood test. Bout all I picked up on that you might want to hear :P