need a friend.

[klutchh]

well... iam just torn..heartbroken...suicidal..all over a gotdamn girl... story is... i've known this girl since 4th grade.. we nvr talked.. NEVER... so..move on...till about this year january.. i was a grade higher.. and about 2 yrs older me 19..her 17... she just graduated high school... and well... she been with this prick for 2 yrs... (they both have a daughter together) and well.. one day i commented on a friends picture of our school pictures from way back then..and the town we live in.. everyone knows everyone.. and every asian knew every asian haha... so she saw me comment and added me... so we talk.. and during the process she was pretty much ending it with her baby daddy...and i stepped into the picture... stayed up all night talking.. i would comfort her... (she lives in cali...me in boston... i moved alot...now in texas hah)...but i would always make her feel good... make her feel loved.. always there for her... (spiritually) ...and well we ended up dating...for 2 weeks.. only cause she still was inlove with her bbydaddy...(i later found out.. i have jealousy issues.. and that was another reason why she left me...)..so we broke up..but we still werr close... so after a night of the usual long talk... i wake up.. to her deleting me on facebook..and just shunning me... so i was like wow... brushed it off...2 months later... she text me. .asking me to tell her shes beautiful..ect... and i do... my old feelings i had put away for her.. CAMEBACK FULL FORCE....so now... she left ... we are still friends..but she says we are just friends..and it crushes me.. cause iam always there for her...and all the guys she friends with just want a piece of her..and she knows it... the girl crys to me about it.. she cried telling me to never leave her.... (funny i know...).... but now...iam so crushed...cause shes talking to all these guys..and i am in LOVE with her... i just want her back... iam literally selling my ps3..my psp...everything i own... and am going to travel back to california..and tell her iam in love with her..but i got to move on.. cause i know... it will never happen...iam just soo sad... and depressed..and i jsut wanna die so i can forget her and wish i never remet her... i just need a friend to talk to...facebook friend..skype friend ...whatever... just need help gettn over this girl... ..iam so heartbroken.... crys..... and i dont ever cry over a girl...just not me... this sucks... like bottle of vodka..and lots of pills.. i told my self... iam drown myself in soo much depression and anger..the day i see that facebook relationship status..go from single to in a relationship...(hers)..... sigh.... iam on skype.. we can chat if anyone wants to... me.. ihatekiet.

[TheMatrix]

I'm sorry. I couldn't read that. Could you please edit that and format it to make it easier to read? Thsnks.

On a lighter note: Welcome to VT!

[DerBear]

this will sound un helpful but i had trouble reading that so could you edit it like thematrix wanted to

And welcome to VT

[okaannie]

here,there are so many friends.

[Sage]

You'll probably not like what I'm about to say, but of all the threads I've seen on this board, I think you need to hear it more than anyone else.

This entire thing is extremely unhealthy, man. You can't go on living your life completely obsessive and dependent on a person that lives on the other side of the country and is already involved with someone else. Regardless of whatever she says about needing you in her life, you need to forget it and live for yourself. You're never going to completely have things just the way you want with her: She's raising a child with the other guy, and no matter what she does now, he's always going to be in the picture. Children do that to relationships. Whether she leaves him for you or not, there's a permanent link between her and him, and you've already said that you have severe jealousy problems. That doesn't add up to a healthy relationship even if she stays with you.

Secondly, I really doubt that even if she does decide you be with you that it'll last. She seems extremely fickle in whether she wants to stay with him or not. She might tell you all sorts of horrible things about him, but the truth is that they've already been together for years and, as I said earlier, he's always going to be in the picture no matter what happens now. Having a child at highschool age doesn't speak well for her responsibility, either.

You're only nineteen. You've so many years ahead of you that you could use to focus on more worthwhile things and more worthwhile people. This girl is causing you nothing but grief and holding you back from enjoying life. I understand that you feel a certain way about her, and while we as humans have little control over how we feel, we do have control over what we do about those feelings.

Stop wasting your valuable time with the girl. Stop being there for her. Don't even try to remain friends, because your imagination will get carried away with wanting more. If you spend every waking moment of your life for someone else, that means you're never there for yourself, and eventually that'll take its toll and you won't be able to be there for anybody.

If you want to talk, my skype address is on my forum profile.

[mrbob360]

im sorry to sound nasty but all i can say is i have a friend who is the same she cut of all contact with us we r her friends coz all she wanted was to have sex and marry her abuser of a boyfriend who is 21 and shes 17/18 now she wants to be friends again buti jus said no sorry you didnt listen, you pushed us away why should i be your friend

thats all you got to say i know its hard but it will help you in long run when you find someone else like that that will love you and be with you

sorry i couldnt be much more of help

[klutchh]

i just wanna die. im so feffn heartbroken.

[Havok]

I don't want to be the one to tell you this, but in our mind, the object of our affection is ALWAYS portrayed as much better then they actually are. In truth, and don't hate me for saying this, she just seems like one of THOSE girls. I don't think any knd of a relationship with her is healthy for you. She seems to have her own demons she is fighting, yet she keeps going back to the hell that is her baby daddy. I know a girl like this, and trust me, it is much better to just stay as far away as possible, some damage is just too much for two people to carry, which is why she keeps switching between you and her old boyfriend. She obviously has insecurities, but i really don't think it's possible to have a healthy relationship with her, again don't hate me for all this...