why does this keep happening

[ackmedsgirl666]

all this drama. it just won't go away
it follows me everywhere
anytime i try and do a good thing it turns bad
maybe i should stop helping ppl or even caring
last night 3 of my room mates got extremely drunk and one of them christian who was my bestfriend and big brother betrayed me. i went home in tears and told the staff what happened because in my house you cannot be under the influence of anything at all. anyways now all these kids i live with have to stay in the house for the next few days whereas i don't have to cuz i did nothing wrong. now they hate me because apparently i was drinking when i was not and i apparently got away with it. fuck them... i just think im gonna give up on the whole helping ppl out thing because it always ends up something goes wrong and ppl hate me. my life is circled by drama and my life is slowly coming to an end.
as if things couldn't get worse but as i was writing this my gf texted me saying shes going into the hospital. like wtf
i just can't take all this chaos and bullshit. i guarantee if i diapeared off of the face of this world nobody would care...
god i hate this so fucking much
i hate everything about myself and my life
i swear im a human target for failure
what do i do :(

[Lethe]

Don't you believe for a moment that you not being on this earth would be a good thing!

Not every person is as selfish as your roommates seem to be. They were doing something wrong; they were disobeying rules, and when they were caught they were angry. A somewhat natural response, but they should at least accept their punishment. You did nothing wrong; you were doing the right thing! They can be angry at you, but you need to understand that you did the right thing. They may dislike you for it, but always remember that their opinions don't matter. Knowing that you did the right thing should be enough :).

[ackmedsgirl666]

okay like one of the girls bitched me out last night and now they are all ignoring me
my gf has gotten outta the hospital but idk whats wrong with her... i hope shes ok
im just so fucking stressed