Fear.

[Dunce]

Something weird is happening to me. Ok well, I have this intense fear of death, and other things, but mostly death.
But the fear only really comes out at night. It's not that I have time to think about it at night, because even when I'm with my friends as soon as it starts to get dark I get this feeling of dread. I feel horribly scared anyway, I had a nervous breakdown the other night because of it.
I don't really want to talk about why I'm afraid of death, because it's irrelevant, but my fear is so bad that sometimes it's all I think about. It dictates how I live my life.

But at night I have this feeling, it kind of feels like it's leading up to something horrible and I get so nervous. I get shakey, I get nauseous, I'm so scared that I don't even cry, I just lie there wishing I was asleep.
I think during the day I have things that can take my mind off the fears I have, but for some reason the night reminds me of them.

I don't really know how anyone here could help me. I guess I just needed to get it out.

[Love.Hate]

I just want to reassure you, i think most people are scared of death. I know I am, I'm scared of what it would do to my family and friends.. I'm very conscious that I only live once and I have to enjoy it.

But it sounds like you have a really bad feeling towards it. You probably know why your so scared, you have to work your way around this problem slowly, either by enjoying every minute, or by maybe talking to someone? Cause once it's out you don't have to sit and think about it over and over.

It happens to all of us, so really its nothing to be scared about. It's a terrifying thing, but inevitable, if you spend all your life worrying then you have wasted it, chances are you have got another 80 years here, so make the most of it now. :)