EarthToBryan
June 19th, 2011, 04:08 PM
I have lived far in the woods, and only really left my house to go to school or pick up something with my parents my whole life. I have always been a weird kid, so I didn't really make many friends or go over to anyone's house. The only people I had contact with were (are) my Mom, Dad, brother, my parent's friends (maybe 3-4 times a year) and whoever I could strike up a conversation with on the internet. This has lead to me having social anxiety and being really awkward. I also have been depressed, fairly severely, intermittently for years.
Now that I have moved to Florida I am having a really hard time fitting in and enjoying anything. I was able to cope in Florida, making at least a few friends, but now that I have moved back up to Michigan for the summer I am freaking out. I have been isolated in this evil place for about a month now and have essentially just sat in my room, read and listened to the same 15 songs on my iPod the whole time.
I can't drive, or I would be out of this place, and I don't know anyone up here. On top of that I have chronic insomnia that makes me go through every day in a haze, just the other day I had to pull over and make my mom drive because I ran two red lights in a row because I couldn't focus (learner's permit) I'm just biding my time until another miserable year of school begins but I think I might actually go crazy if I can't find anything to keep my mind off of my situation. The thing is, I don't even have any hobbies, other than reading. I have nothing to do and all day to think about it. Can anyone offer me any advice on how to keep from losing my marbles, or at least a new song for me to add to my playlist?
Now that I have moved to Florida I am having a really hard time fitting in and enjoying anything. I was able to cope in Florida, making at least a few friends, but now that I have moved back up to Michigan for the summer I am freaking out. I have been isolated in this evil place for about a month now and have essentially just sat in my room, read and listened to the same 15 songs on my iPod the whole time.
I can't drive, or I would be out of this place, and I don't know anyone up here. On top of that I have chronic insomnia that makes me go through every day in a haze, just the other day I had to pull over and make my mom drive because I ran two red lights in a row because I couldn't focus (learner's permit) I'm just biding my time until another miserable year of school begins but I think I might actually go crazy if I can't find anything to keep my mind off of my situation. The thing is, I don't even have any hobbies, other than reading. I have nothing to do and all day to think about it. Can anyone offer me any advice on how to keep from losing my marbles, or at least a new song for me to add to my playlist?