My Past

[moon_lit_angel]

Ok so since i've decided to stop cutting and self harming, i've decided that i need to get everything thats happened to me out in one thread..! If its in the wrong place please move it

Ok so when i was between the ages of 7 and 10 i was sexually abused and raped numerous of times by a family member.! I've only began to realise it now that it was in actual fact rape. :( But i feel awful to because when i think back on it he used to give me a 5 euro or 10 euro after it.! So was i a prostitute?? :(

From the age of 11-13 i was abused by another family member he used to touch me and make me feel him, and also use to touch me down below and finger me :// etc

When i was 16, i was raped in town, my "then" boyfriend never showed up for our date, and i was attacked by 3 guys, i was brutally raped and i had to do anal and give oral etc.. i ended up becoming pregnant, and i lost the baby after 4 months.

in november 2010, i was at a guy's house and he physically forced himself on top of me he was to strong, he almost raped me and he pulled a 6 inch knife out on me but i fought and got away

so yea :/

just needed t get dat out.. cant go into detail because i'll snap and i've gone 26 days without self harm.. im going back to where i was when i hadn't self harmed in a year and a half before relapsing

[PoseidonX43]

man thats just...... i dont know, but i know its hard to forget the past if u let the past control your life you want get no where. hope i helped

[HandheldOutlaw]

Hey hon,
Jesus that's hard. I'm sorry all that has happened to you, it's truly awful. But I'm glad you're confronting it. (: Keep strong hon, I'm always here if you need someone to talk to.

[Love.Hate]

Im sorry to hear you have been through that, Keep strong and i really really hope it has helped you to get that out. You didnt deserve any of it. Chin up beaut <3

[MattVon]

First of all I just want to apologise for going through hell and back, but I congratulate you that you're still alive and kicking and are working well towards not self harming. I honestly can not comprehend how much pain you have gone through, but I do certainly know you still have a life to live and achieve something from it to forget your past.

It's defiantly not the greatest of things to think of negative moments of your life, whether it is the past that has happened or the future. Just stay positive and work to something in life you will enjoy, something that you can go far in life with. To your prostitute question, I'd personally say that you are not a prostitute at all. Firstly, you was too young and secondly it was against your own will and you clearly wasn't old enough to understand any of it as you may do.

I know I've said this before to you, because I can vaguely remember talking to your before, many members on her including myself are more than welcome to talk to you, help keep your mind clear of anything negative and help you think positive and have some laughs. It's always good to be happy, no matter how dull life may be, there's always something to be happy about even if you're unaware of it.

[moon_lit_angel]

man thats just...... i dont know, but i know its hard to forget the past if u let the past control your life you want get no where. hope i helped

My past has been controlling my life along, but i have decided to STOP it from doing that any longer.

Hey hon,
Jesus that's hard. I'm sorry all that has happened to you, it's truly awful. But I'm glad you're confronting it. (: Keep strong hon, I'm always here if you need someone to talk to.

Thank you, they say your past makes you stronger :)

Im sorry to hear you have been through that, Keep strong and i really really hope it has helped you to get that out. You didnt deserve any of it. Chin up beaut <3

Its ok darling, people have been through worse. x

First of all I just want to apologise for going through hell and back, but I congratulate you that you're still alive and kicking and are working well towards not self harming. I honestly can not comprehend how much pain you have gone through, but I do certainly know you still have a life to live and achieve something from it to forget your past.

It's defiantly not the greatest of things to think of negative moments of your life, whether it is the past that has happened or the future. Just stay positive and work to something in life you will enjoy, something that you can go far in life with. To your prostitute question, I'd personally say that you are not a prostitute at all. Firstly, you was too young and secondly it was against your own will and you clearly wasn't old enough to understand any of it as you may do.

I know I've said this before to you, because I can vaguely remember talking to your before, many members on her including myself are more than welcome to talk to you, help keep your mind clear of anything negative and help you think positive and have some laughs. It's always good to be happy, no matter how dull life may be, there's always something to be happy about even if you're unaware of it.

Thanks Matt, yes we talked before, and thank you I will remember that :)