love is louder
June 18th, 2011, 09:18 PM
I dont know whether this is a good thing or a bad thing to be honest. I have decided reacently that i actually want to stop cutting. Again i dont know whether this is a good idea or a bad one but im going to follow it and see where it takes me.
I have been self harming and hiding it for over 5 years and recently i have decided it isnt worth the hassle. I dont feel any kind of pleasure from it anymore i just get more and more fustrated! Also i really cant be arsed to make the effort to hide it anymore. My best friend and my boyfriend both know i do it and both see the scars and my family dont take any notice. And i desparetly want to go swimming again! So from now on i am quitting. It has been over 7 days since my last time and i have only had 3 "accidents" which is really good for me so fingers crossed :).
I have been self harming and hiding it for over 5 years and recently i have decided it isnt worth the hassle. I dont feel any kind of pleasure from it anymore i just get more and more fustrated! Also i really cant be arsed to make the effort to hide it anymore. My best friend and my boyfriend both know i do it and both see the scars and my family dont take any notice. And i desparetly want to go swimming again! So from now on i am quitting. It has been over 7 days since my last time and i have only had 3 "accidents" which is really good for me so fingers crossed :).