Can't resist anymore

[Travis Is Losing It]

Lately ive been going so long without cutting (round 2 months) but i lost my gf my best friend just got put in foster care cause her mom is a *itc* my biological mom is pissed at me for no reason at all and everyones been flipping on me for every little thing ive done wrong and i havent had a cig for like a week and its really starting to drive me insane and im glad i just cant find my knife or else im quite sure my arm would be slashed. :( idk what to do anymore

[Bath]

I shivered when I read about the cigs, addiction can contribute a LOT to how impulsive you are. It sucks a lot. :/ I would try and cut down on the cigarettes, maybe just keep a pack for emergencies, when you're feeling like this.

I can also relate to how you don't know what to do and everybody flipping out on you. You're not alone in this feeling, and I know that fact doesn't help a whole lot, but I can tell you I've been through it and it does get better. The thing that sucks about that is I could tell you that over and over again but it doesn't really change how you feel at this moment.

All I can say is to keep breathing and listen to relaxing music.
and 2 months is a really long time to go without cutting, I'm proud of you for that. stay strong.

[ReasonsForWeeping]

2 months is the longest ive ever gotten without self harm it drove me insane i lashed out and had a panic attack and gave in but it was b/c mt ex bf cheated on me i lost a baby my best friend almost died she tried to kill herself i wasn't around to stop her my mom was on my case for everything that's why i broke down oh and one of my friends died of brain cancer so don't lash out over the little things and about the smoking yes its bad for try the patch