what if?

[Bath]

what if it doesn't get better, and what if all of my life is suffering?
but what if the sun shines one day out of the next million?
what if there is someone else who also whispers to herself in the dark,
shaking to the same thoughts rushing through my mind?

if there's no point, if i'm defeated, it's over and i will never cry again.
i will also never dance again
but it's been years, and in those years i haven't danced at all.
what if it doesn't get better?
what if my wrists dont heal?
and what if i never know?