Hastro
June 15th, 2011, 06:09 AM
Ok to understand this you kind of need some backstory.
When I was 12 (Im 15 now.) I used to be really depressed and looking back at it now I delt with it the wrong way (cutting etc.) this depression lasted till I was about 14 and I've been fine for the past year. This depression was normally caused by parents/friends etc. and yeah. Things go better when I went to the hospital for a week -to make it easy to understand: I was thinking too much and my brain was making me feel as If I was in a lot of pain.
Anyway, over the past 3-4 months things have been going downhill for me. Long story short I've been best friends with this girl for around 7 months. In these seven months I've liked her all this time but I knew she wouldnt go there because she was pretty depressed about her boyfriend of a year and a half that dumped her, I spent all this time helping her through her breakup (meanwhile being rejected by her twice because of the reason before.) then one day out of the blue he decided to talk to her again and they got back together. Her boyfriend hates me because he knows Im into her so It dosent make things easy for us to maintain the friendship we had before.
Now I started this new school year (This year where the grades really count) doings well but then I started thinking about her again. Everything in my life is amazing, but shes on my mind all the time and I really cant stop thinking about her. Now, I honestly dont care that we arnt great friends anymore or that she dosent feel the same way but what I needed to ask is: How do I sort out this 'depression' because Its causing my grades to drop?
I dont fail often at school, but now Im in the senior years at school and grades really count. For some reason Im really worried about failing. My grades have droped from top marks to just achieving and often not achieving. Each time I not achieve a test it makes me feel worse, and I've failed 3 easy tests in a row now and I feel like shit. It feels like everyone is talking about me when I fail and I think so much about failing and this girl that I cant concentrate at school which causes me to fail more and it dosent help that all my friends are some of the smartest kids at school, and It seems like I cant fit in when Im failing everytest.
So I say one thing-
Help?
When I was 12 (Im 15 now.) I used to be really depressed and looking back at it now I delt with it the wrong way (cutting etc.) this depression lasted till I was about 14 and I've been fine for the past year. This depression was normally caused by parents/friends etc. and yeah. Things go better when I went to the hospital for a week -to make it easy to understand: I was thinking too much and my brain was making me feel as If I was in a lot of pain.
Anyway, over the past 3-4 months things have been going downhill for me. Long story short I've been best friends with this girl for around 7 months. In these seven months I've liked her all this time but I knew she wouldnt go there because she was pretty depressed about her boyfriend of a year and a half that dumped her, I spent all this time helping her through her breakup (meanwhile being rejected by her twice because of the reason before.) then one day out of the blue he decided to talk to her again and they got back together. Her boyfriend hates me because he knows Im into her so It dosent make things easy for us to maintain the friendship we had before.
Now I started this new school year (This year where the grades really count) doings well but then I started thinking about her again. Everything in my life is amazing, but shes on my mind all the time and I really cant stop thinking about her. Now, I honestly dont care that we arnt great friends anymore or that she dosent feel the same way but what I needed to ask is: How do I sort out this 'depression' because Its causing my grades to drop?
I dont fail often at school, but now Im in the senior years at school and grades really count. For some reason Im really worried about failing. My grades have droped from top marks to just achieving and often not achieving. Each time I not achieve a test it makes me feel worse, and I've failed 3 easy tests in a row now and I feel like shit. It feels like everyone is talking about me when I fail and I think so much about failing and this girl that I cant concentrate at school which causes me to fail more and it dosent help that all my friends are some of the smartest kids at school, and It seems like I cant fit in when Im failing everytest.
So I say one thing-
Help?