Please help me, I'm scared and confused.

[Caffeineeffect]

I know its long, but anyone who opens this, please read asa much as you can and post some type of advice, even if its two words. I don't know how else to get into this, so I'll just start. A little while ago I got in trouble for this "thing" I can't explain what it is, but it was big, and legal is a good adjective. Anyways it was this huge deal, but it's died down. But things like this don't just go away. So now, about four months later I'm starting to freak out. When I'm in certain moods my heart will race, I'll get butterflies in my stomach, and my mind races over a bunch of things. I should explain, that to a degree, in a very very VERY dissimilar way, I did this thing again. Let me stress it really wasn't the same at all. I haven't gotten in trouble, but when I'm "turned off" it's always with me. I'm stressed and I keep thinking what it could do to my family, or what it could do to me. And now, even though I haven't at all done anything bad since my stress started, it always feels like I did something wrong. I'm scared, nervous, and not that I'm suicidal (let me stress that so seriously) I can't help but to think how much easier it would be to die and not have to worry about this thing (please please please know that I would never seriously kill myself, I can't stress that enough) But basically it's taking over my life, and I'm starting to believe there is something psychologically wrong with me, some stress disorder, I'm just so scared all the time. I need some advice on a few things: what should I do about this panic? How many other people have been in trouble like this (although I know it sounds very vague)? And please, most importantly I need some serious self control exercises and activities, things that will keep my mind in check no matter my mood (to be clear, my bad mood is hormonal sexually turned on) PLEASE JUST HELP ME!! AND I CAN TAKE ANYTHING YOU HAVE TO SAY, PLEASE JUST SAY IT!!!

[DismaliciouSx]

This might not be much help, and of coarse I'm not a doctor of any sort but it sounds like you have anxiety

[Donkey]

Ben - there is a limit on what we can help with. It's really important that you try to keep as calm as possible; remember everything is OK and that it's all in your head. You should talk to your GP who may refer you to a psychiatrist.

[screamtobeheard]

Alright, as you've stated, this is incredibly vague, so we can't give very much specific advice, but as has been said by the others, I'd advise to speak with your GP about it as well, as it sounds like your anxiety is a serious problem and is really getting to you. In the meantime, have you tried just emptying your mind, closing your eyes, and picturing somewhere peaceful while breathing slowly and deeply? My counselor told me that helps when you're stressed and suffering from anxiety. It might not help a lot, but it can't hurt to try.

[December]

Part of what you described sounds like you're getting panic attacks. Like everyone else said, I'd advise talking to someone about it. You don't have to tell them what you did or what happened outright or anything. If you feel like you can't do that, find something that will relax you, like music or sleeping or wrapping up in a blanket or deep breathing or counting backwards or reading or painting or eating or talking to a friend or picturing someplace really peaceful. Hang in there

[NED081]

you're being very vague but i would assume this incident is possibly drug related?
i've been in a similar situation either way, and let me just tell you you're going to be okay. whatever it actually was that you "did" don't do it again if it makes you feel like this. there is nothing wrong with you physically, its just all in your head. stay calm, and take a deep breath you're fine. even though you could get in trouble, it would be best to tell your parents, doctor, or someone you trust to get help.