Hurts to smile

[Love.Hate]

Have any of you got to the point before that it seriously is hard to smile?

I feel myself slowly bursting into tears. It's like my body doesn't want me to be happy. Today is supposed to be a happy birthday. Happy. Not this.

I'm just going insane I reckon, anyone else her feel like this? Or am I the only one.. :(

[MadManWithaBox]

Yes. Almost all the time. And sometimes Fran, we shouldn't smile. We should allow ourselves to not convey happiness through every bit of ourselves, because we don't feel it.

[Love.Hate]

Yeah I know. But I have to smile to prove to people I'm okay.

[MadManWithaBox]

But its ok to not be ok Fran. You can't be strong all the time.

[Love.Hate]

Not today it isn't. I'm dreading this birthday meal so much. It's all just going to be so fake!

Your right I can't be strong all the time, but I have to be today.

[MadManWithaBox]

:( Only a few hours right?

[Love.Hate]

True, which is still hard enough.

[MadManWithaBox]

When its done you can come in and frown a bit right?

[Love.Hate]

When its done you can come in and frown a bit right?

I frowned.. lol.

But it wasnt as hard as i had anticipated.. i worry too much.

[December]

I'm glad it went okay then. It's hard for me too sometimes especially because I just feel like such a liar doing it. But I guess there is a time and place for everything, and sometimes you just have to push through the misery and pretend to be fine, if that's what has to be done.

[rainytiina]

nope,some times.

[MadManWithaBox]

I frowned.. lol.

But it wasnt as hard as i had anticipated.. i worry too much.

You do :P But its ok Fran. We can't smile all the time. Its foolish to even try.

[Love.Hate]

Thats a very good point.. im being stupid to expect myself to be happy all of the time.
Sometimes i guess its okay to be sad

[MadManWithaBox]

Yes it is! Cos no-ones happy all the time. You have to feel all the emotions, good and bad.