Just one more

[MadManWithaBox]

So just one more memory. I discussed it with my nice psychiatrist Emma today. And I'd feel better telling you guys than people I actually know. So there we are. How pathetic.

I don't want to do details here. Not expilicitly. But who cares. It was 2008. My mother somehow persauded me to spend 4 days with my father. She told me he'd changed. And she paid me. To be honest. So I did. And he was perfectly pleasent. And I was stupid enough to believe he was changed. I was stupid. So stupid. People don't change. Especially him. It was nice. Then I won't..... He drugged me. With something that didn't slow you down mentally, just physically. Not able to move essentially. Then he beat me. Over and over. Then he tied me down. Invited some people over. And charged them 20 pound a go to use me for their sexual pleasure. Then when they left, he set me on fire. And only in the morning, before my mum came ,did he let me go.

Stupid memory. Don't know why I told it.

[Love.Hate]

Oh my. Matt thats awful, you know what i think of him.

You deserve better.. its so unfair how much shit you have got.
I hope you feel better for letting that out <3

[Hershey's Kisses]

Your dad set you on fire ? How awful to do that to your kid . How did you even make it out Alive after all the abuse ?

[MadManWithaBox]

I surivied because I had to. No matter how much it hurts

[scuba steve]

Ok, so you're 19 now.... Have you not just walked round to his house and smacked him yet? I'm not being humorous here, that seriously was a sick thing to do to your child and regardless of your feelings towards the man, he should be rotting in a prison somewhere.

[MadManWithaBox]

I don't know where he is. Someone told me he was dead. Someone else told me he's in Newcastle. Either way, he's not here. And I'm 18. Age thing is wrong.

[scuba steve]

Shame, I'm sure anyone would want to get back at the person who did that to them. I've been following these additions and it just seems to be one terrible thing after another. It must be tough to type these down. :)

[MadManWithaBox]

My psychiatrist says it's best to write it down. And if I do it on paper, someone might see it. So this is easy.

[Travis Is Losing It]

I'm sorry that happened. (also big fan of doctor who just saying ^^) but writing it on here is just as good as on paper. But I defently think you shouldn't see your dad again expecially if hes such a horrible person to do that to you... I don't want to say people that do that are worthless but they kind of are. Some change but thats rare. I'm glad that you had the courage to put it actually out somewhere though.

[Sith Lord 13]

:hug: The important thing to remember Matt is that it's all over now. He's not going to hurt you again.

[MadManWithaBox]

I wouldn't know Alex. Everytime I hear someone at the door, I get scared.

[Travis Is Losing It]

well your 19 you can probably out run him worst case. and if your mom knows about what happened i doubt she is going to let you near him again. + hes not going to come to your house and try that it would be to stupid of him.

[Pancakes]

If you find his adress I would fuck him up!

[Sith Lord 13]

I wouldn't know Alex. Everytime I hear someone at the door, I get scared.

:hug: Matt, it's all over now, I promise. He's not going to get you ever again. You're safe now.

[MadManWithaBox]

Its harder than believing that Alex/

[Sith Lord 13]

Its harder than believing that Alex/

I know Matt. Trust me, I know. In time, you'll start to realize it's true though.

[MadManWithaBox]

How do you know?

[Sith Lord 13]

How do you know?

Experience Matt. I know from experience.