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shadman
June 7th, 2011, 10:11 AM
Ok, well I’m Bi-Cur. Right now, I don’t know if I’m totally Bi until I try stuff with the samez sex. I’m not interested in any of my friends(which most of all my guy friends are bi, or they say they are). Now that I think about it I meet a few guys I found attractive. 1 is a guy I barely know, and 2 the other guy was at this thing I was at, but I was drunk and went manly for a girl.

They are both bi, but they are public about it. I want to keep it quit about it, well until I move to California fully. I was hoping to met a guy while I was there and well maybe see if I am Bi-Sexual. I don’t know, I just got my luck with girls back so Idk if I met a girl instead, but both are very unlikely. I still like girls, but I’ve always got hard to some gay stuff on movies/TV. For an example, they made a joke about a gay cruse. The showed to men doing it in bed. I got so erected when seen it, but yeah I really like girls still.

The reason I’m keeping it on the down low(which is if I do met a guy, he’ll have to be quit to ppl I know, manly my ex-step dad if in Cali). Not that I’m ashamed or I think my friends and family wont excepted me, just that I don’t think they deserve to know. My friend who lives with me(btw before I go on, my family already don’t like my friend as a person cuz he steals and shit) is Bi and my family thought that was weird, and when my mom told my uncle, he looked at me and said “Your, not are you?” with a weird look.

I said no because I thought then there why would I let them excepted me for my sexuality(I know they would though with open arms) if they couldn’t except my friends. + I don’t want my friends to think were doing it cuz now I can’t stand him, he’s real EW looking, and very poor hinging(idk if spelled right). My mom does and so did my ex-step dad, but my moms a loud mouth and my step dad is a little homophobic.

And as for my friends, there’s so many people saying their Bi to be “cool and different” so I’m good with being quit about my curiosity. That and the not being that attractive and/or trustworthy or any guy around me.

So what do you think?:confused:

ackmedsgirl666
June 7th, 2011, 10:27 AM
mhmmm sounds really confusing lol
its ok to be curious and keep quiet about it if u really feel the need
maybe eventually when u feel more comfortable u might decide to come out :)

Parlement
June 7th, 2011, 02:14 PM
Staying quiet is perfectly fine. But eventualy you're going to have to come out of the closet.

Or you could just tell your friends/family you're bi. Do it fast, like ripping off a band-aid. And if they don't accept you for who you are, then they don't deserve you.

shadman
June 13th, 2011, 11:27 AM
Ok, Im herein Cally (Willows, it’s a small town) and I’m home alon. I don’t know if I’ll meet someone here, (let alone curios, strait, or bi) but I’m goin outside to day so I might meet someone, at this point I hope to meet anyone just to flirt and hang with lol :P (guy or girl)

Oh btw guys I don’t know if I am in the closet, that’s why I want to experiment :)

Nelson
June 14th, 2011, 07:15 AM
The definition of 'Being in the Closet' is that you haven't come out yet, So if you haven't told anyone about your sexuality, your in the closet.

In relation to your original post, One thing that grabbed me was this..
And as for my friends, there’s so many people saying their Bi to be “cool and different”

That makes me a bit angry, people shouldn't be 'saying' they are bisexual to be 'cool' or 'different', Changing your sexuality is a big thing, it sticks with you for life..

Other than that, its ultimately up to you, your choice wether or not to come out..

shadman
June 26th, 2011, 12:51 AM
Yea sorry, and yeah it pisses me off to the pont of not even wanting to tell any of my friends the I'm Bi Cur.

Unlucky_Leprechaun
June 27th, 2011, 12:44 PM
If your bi or bi-curious you will discover when is the best time for you to tell anyone when it is best for you. Don't do it because anyone wants you to..its got to be for you. Being in the closet presents lots of challenges. Your young...experiment and decide...then once your true to yourself it will be easier to let the people you know and trust about who you are...and it will be easier for you to answer any questions they may have. Good Luck

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February 2nd, 2012, 01:31 AM
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