Numb

[Fiction]

I know this is my second post saying pretty much the same thing but it seems to have got worse, even since yesterday.

I have no empathy. None at all. I can't feel sorry or upset for anyone or anything. It's bothering me so much right now. I feel like a horrible person. Why can't I care about people? What's wrong with me?

The worst part of all this is that I usually am too empathetic, I usually get too bothered and upset over things happening to other people. Why am I numb now?

I hate what i'm turning into, and I don't even know why it's happening.

I know there's still something there though. I still love people, I still try to help them with everything i've got. If I didn't have any feelings I wouldn't do that right? So they must be there somewhere just, why can't I feel them?

[Love.Hate]

I know there's still something there though. I still love people, I still try to help them with everything i've got. If I didn't have any feelings I wouldn't do that right?

You answered your own question here.. You still care, you just dont know how to show it.. or even to feel it.

Your numb because you dont know how your feeling, so you dont know how to empathise and help others with how to deal how they are feeling. I really hope this passes for you, because its not nice.

[MadManWithaBox]

You do care Kathy. You just can't get your own feelings straight, so you dont know how to react and feel to other peoples problems.

[Fiction]

I'm fed up of this though. Suicidal thoughts are back. Things keep happening, one thing after another and I'm breaking down again and it scares me. I want to cut, I got rid of my blades, I know how easy it'd be to go and get a razor from the cupboard and break it apart, but I can't because I promised...

I don't want to die I just want this over and it feels like the only fucking way. I'm trying so hard to stay strong.

[MadManWithaBox]

Which is why you need to work through your own problems first. You and Aaron together. Then you can fix other people. Thats how you end the pain. Not suicide.

[Love.Hate]

Which is why you need to work through your own problems first. You and Aaron together. Then you can fix other people. Thats how you end the pain. Not suicide.

This.

Kathy you need to work through all your problems first.. to stop you from feeling this nothing.. numbness.

[Fiction]

I just want my head to stop.

[Love.Hate]

I know.. But you have to learn its not going to stop straight away.
Time Kathy time. Just dont act upon those thoughts, and sit them out. They will eventually go away.

[MadManWithaBox]

You have to know those thoughts do eventually pass Kathy.

[Fiction]

I'm okay. I think. Thank you both of you.

[MadManWithaBox]

Good :)

[Love.Hate]

Im really glad.
*hug*
Remember these thoughts will eventually go away.