I did something stupid.

[Love.Hate]

- parents found this

sorry.

[MadManWithaBox]

No no no no Fran. That was stupid. Go and.. I don't know. Sick them up. Or tell someone. Please Fran, you deserve to be here. I promise. Don't do this to me.

[Wicked_Syn]

H-O-S-P-T-A-L

I don't know what that 12 pills you took were, but that's a dangerous level. You need to get a doctor now. Life aint worth waisting to some pills. Let me tell you. You're still young and you have a LIFETIME ahead of you. Teenage years are the worst to cope with. I've been depressed before to the point of suicide, glad I didn't follow through because life is so beautiful to me now.

I seriously hope things get better for you.
-Zach

[Love.Hate]

I dont want to.
i cant :(

[MadManWithaBox]

Fran please. Worry about what your parents will do or say later, get help now. You have so much life to lead. So much potential. Don't waste it. Prove you're fantastic. Tell someone now.

[Love.Hate]

Nobody is home.. they wont be for the next few hours.
Matt i dont want to prove anything to anyone.. i just dont want to be here.

[MadManWithaBox]

Call someone. 999, whatever. Prove it to me, to you, whatever. I love you Fran. And I know you'll do the right thing. You don't want to be here. Stay for anyone or anything that matters.

[Love.Hate]

I doubt i will die anyway. I cant do it matt.. worst thing that going to happen is im ill.
I love you too.. but im scared.

[MadManWithaBox]

14 pills washed down with alcohol will make you very sick Fran. Maybe even kill you. If you love me, don't do this to me. Stay. Call someone. I'l help you. It's natural to be scared, because you know getting help is right.

[Love.Hate]

Well that was the plan.
But its okay.. i have just been violently sick.. so i think im going to be alright. As the majority isnt in my system now.

[MadManWithaBox]

How are you feeling? I'd still seek medical attention. Just in case.

[Love.Hate]

Feel like crap. Head hurts, stomach hurts.
Matt i really cant.. that place scares me.

[MadManWithaBox]

Then I'd definitely still seek medical help. I know hospitals are scary Fran. But you need tio be brave. Please Fran. They'll help you. I'm here. "Being FEARLESS isn't being 100% Not FEARFUL, it's being terrified but you jump anyway...

[Love.Hate]

No... Matt I really really cant. They will make me see him again. I can talk to him again. Please dont make me do this. I will be fine.. if im bad later i will go then. I promise.. i just cant do it alone. And now :(

[MadManWithaBox]

I can't make you do anything Fran. But we both know its right. I would go now. But I can't make you. Fran, god knows I've done stupid things. I've made mistakes. But what matters is that we fix it. We don't let one bad decision define us. You have the power to change it.

Who's he?

[Love.Hate]

The psychologist.

Yeah i know i should go see someone.. but i just cant. Im weak.

[MadManWithaBox]

You're not weak, you'e scared, Different. Ask to see a different psychiatrist? Or play him along till he shuts up.

[Love.Hate]

Sorry Matt i really cant.
I am scared, im terrified. I just wish i had chosen a different way out.
One that actually works.

[MadManWithaBox]

You chose this way because you're scared. You know its not right. The fear is stopping you, but you know what's right Fran. Please.

[Love.Hate]

You chose this way because you're scared. You know its not right. The fear is stopping you, but you know what's right Fran. Please.

Matt im fine now.. if it gets worse i will get help.

[MadManWithaBox]

You don't sound fine :/ but its your decision. If you still feel ill later, promise me you'll go?

[Love.Hate]

yeah i promise <3

[MadManWithaBox]

Ok then. If you feel worse call someone. And drink a lot of water.

[Love.Hate]

Okay, thankyou Matt <3

[MadManWithaBox]

Long as you're ok <3

[Love.Hate]

I'll live.. :/

[MadManWithaBox]

How are you feeling?

[FullyAlive]

:hug:
It's ok you aren't going to die, but I speak from experience you're going to feel like shit for a good few days. But fran you know this isn't right, you know you need help, maybe there are other people you can speak to but either way you need help.

[Magenta]

Fraaaaaaaaaan! *makes a series of distressed noises in the place of words*

I'm not going to lie, this thread is appropriately named. You had better be okay.
/attempt at being threatening in a totally affectionate way.

Matt has already said everything I would have said so I will save you the headache but every time you read his words, I'm saying them too!

I was thinking about you today. A friend and I were talking about birthdays and I was all "Wheeeee Fran's birthday is on Thursday!" and got all excited when someone mentioned the date June 9 for whatever reason. We don't want you to make silly mistakes like this.

:hug:
:hug:
:hug:

[Love.Hate]

How are you feeling?

quite shitty.. but much better than earlier :)

Louise- i know i need help :/
I just dont want it i guess.. after all my bad expierences with help before.

Jo- I know.. i couldnt even hold until my birthday. How weak is that. But its alright, im okay.
Bless you. :heart:

Hugs for you all :hug:

[Fiction]

i know i need help :/
I just dont want it i guess.. after all my bad expierences with help before

I've had bad experiences with help before too, but from what i've heard you just need to find the right counselor for you. I've had my doubts about trying again but i'm on the waiting list to be referred at the moment. I guess it's just trial and error until you find the right person. Surly it's worth a try?

[Love.Hate]

Yeah i guess, I need a new one.. but i dont want my summer full of counsellor appointments. I want to enjoy it. So i might wait until after summer.

Edit- Just worked out that im at 134mg/kg.. and serious liver damage is 150mg/kg.
So im okay. As long as i drink lots of water.