Parlement
June 6th, 2011, 12:42 AM
My experience is very simple. I broke the thin blades out of one of my mom's cheap plastic disposable razorz. There was to. I don't know why I did this, I remember just wanting to try it out, to see what the big deal about self cutting was. So I slid the blade across my thigh. I remember I chose my thigh because I didn't want anybody to see it if it led a scar. Now, remember, the blades where very thin, as a result, so where the cuts. Blood only seeped out.
The funny thing was, I didn't feel pain when I did it. So I did it again about 7 times. A few on my thigh, and then I tried my wrist. I must have cut myself at least 11 times in one "session" before I realized what I was doing to myself. I guess I see how it can get addicting.
After this, I felt nothing, except I wanted the bleeding to stop so I could put my pants back on (lol). I guess I didn't feel better. I really didn't feel depressed to begin with.
For me, it wasn't hard to quit. For some odd reason I did it about 2 more times, but thats it. I've also smoked before, and that wasn't hard to quit either. I guess these where more of just activities that I had set in my daily life that I kept wanting. But once I realized what could happen, I just plain, flat out, stopped. I guess I was one of the lucky ones.
My advice for anybody that is self cutting, is to keep in mind that you're a beautiful person. No matter who you are or what people tell you. Love yourself. Love the skin you're in. And as hard as it may seem, talking to somebody about your problems WILL help. Keeping your emotions bottled up inside isn't helping you at all.
I wish you all the best of luck.
The funny thing was, I didn't feel pain when I did it. So I did it again about 7 times. A few on my thigh, and then I tried my wrist. I must have cut myself at least 11 times in one "session" before I realized what I was doing to myself. I guess I see how it can get addicting.
After this, I felt nothing, except I wanted the bleeding to stop so I could put my pants back on (lol). I guess I didn't feel better. I really didn't feel depressed to begin with.
For me, it wasn't hard to quit. For some odd reason I did it about 2 more times, but thats it. I've also smoked before, and that wasn't hard to quit either. I guess these where more of just activities that I had set in my daily life that I kept wanting. But once I realized what could happen, I just plain, flat out, stopped. I guess I was one of the lucky ones.
My advice for anybody that is self cutting, is to keep in mind that you're a beautiful person. No matter who you are or what people tell you. Love yourself. Love the skin you're in. And as hard as it may seem, talking to somebody about your problems WILL help. Keeping your emotions bottled up inside isn't helping you at all.
I wish you all the best of luck.