why does it feel like i was the one that got dumped?

[Painted_Indian_Horse]

i broke up with my bf today. he's a great guy, and fun to be around, but i'm just not physically attracted to him that much. he's cute, don't get me wrong. and before you think i'm some shallow bitch that only cares about looks, just hear me out. i just can't stay in a relationship for long. i start to dread seeing them. i have to make myself be with them, cause i don't have it in me to hurt their feelings. but i broke up with him, and he was so upset. i feel awful, but what's done is done. i feel like this will be what i wanted, i have my freedom back, but why does it feel like i'm the one that lost him? i know i didn't. he told me he'd wait for me. i know i could go back to him at any time, but it would just put me back in my old situation.
my last boyfriend ended this way too. i just... lost interest. i don't know. maybe it's my medication, my personality...? i just don't know. i just need to move forward. :confused:

[Eagle63]

It could be guilt... Just wait it out, maybe wait a little while before your next bf. Maybe talk to the guy. Don't give him the wrong idea or anything, but do you catch my drift? just because you broke up with him doesn't mean you can never talk to him again.