It's changed

[MadManWithaBox]

Thing's have changed. Well something. And now, I can't do it. Really, I can't. He left. I need him. And he's gone. So I can't do anything. They win. Oh well.

[Syvelocin]

Is the he we are talking about the he I'm thinking of? Matt, you know you don't need him. He has done nothing good for you. They don't win, because you know you can't give up. You might feel like you want to, Matt, but you know well what giving up is, and you don't want that.

[MadManWithaBox]

No. My friend. Micheal. Well not friend. He left me. How do I do this without him

[Syvelocin]

You just have to. No, he isn't your friend. Friends don't leave. He's worth nothing if he left you. You just get back up, by yourself, and go on. Find someone else who will do this with you, whether someone local or someone on VT. Because you have a great support system here. I've seen it. I never got two pages of replies from anyone here, and one of your threads in the Abuse section has gotten that. Don't think you're short on resources.

[MadManWithaBox]

It was him. It was always him. And he told me to go away and never come back

[Syvelocin]

And so you've got to recuperate. Not everyone will be with you through it all. But you have to heal, you can't just leave that wound untreated, leave that hole unfilled. That's how it's done. This is probably what he wants. Don't give him that. Don't let him see you broken. Mend yourself.

[MadManWithaBox]

But he was. The only person I've ever called a friend. Not off the Internet. I was always there for him. He promised me. And he took everything and threw it in my face and burned it.

[Love.Hate]

Oh no Matt, im so sorry to hear that. I really really am.
But its not all over, you still have to fight this.. regardless of whether he is there to support you or not. We are still all here for you.

Its his loss.

[MadManWithaBox]

He didn't have the decency to tell me to my face. Or even call me. He text me. Then I called him. And he told me. Fucking piece of nothing.

[Love.Hate]

He didn't have the decency to tell me to my face. Or even call me. He text me. Then I called him. And he told me. Fucking piece of nothing.

Then he wasnt a true friend.. because real friends dont do that to you.
Matt im so sorry, but you will still get through this!

[MadManWithaBox]

No I can't. He was all I had. And I probably deserved it.

[Syvelocin]

Uh uh, no. You do not deserve ANY of this shit, Matt. None of it. None of the rape, the cancer, and certainly not this. Please do not think that you do. Because if not just as much as the rest of the world, you deserve it LESS with everything you've been through.

[Love.Hate]

Uh uh, no. You do not deserve ANY of this shit, Matt. None of it. None of the rape, the cancer, and certainly not this. Please do not think that you do. Because if not just as much as the rest of the world, you deserve it LESS with everything you've been through.

Matt, Rith is so right. You dont deserve any of this. I promise you that.

[MadManWithaBox]

If I didn't deserve it why did he leave?

[Sith Lord 13]

If I didn't deserve it why did he leave?

Short answer: People are dicks.

Long answer: People are really big fucking dicks.

That's really all the answer there is sometimes.

[Love.Hate]

Short answer: People are dicks.

Long answer: People are really big fucking dicks.

That's really all the answer there is sometimes.

This.

He left for no reason at all Matt. He just left :(

[MadManWithaBox]

He was never like that. Do not get it.

[Love.Hate]

I dont get it either. Sometimes there are just no reasons for things.

[MadManWithaBox]

But he does have a reason. He has better friends.

[Love.Hate]

Thats a crap reason.

[MadManWithaBox]

No its a right reason.

[Love.Hate]

Matt its not, you can have more than one friend.
There isnt a reason for what he did

[MadManWithaBox]

I don't know :/

[Sith Lord 13]

I don't know :/

:hug: Sometimes you just have to let things go. Easier said than done, I know, but you have to work at it.