Love.Hate
June 5th, 2011, 09:54 AM
Last night.. the night before.. and the night before that.
Im just terrified of going to bed tonight, I keep having these horrible nightmares about self harm.. well im not sure if it is that. Its other people hurting me.. literally.
Like last night, a girl that used to bully me tied me to a chair.. pulled up my sleeves and was shouting at me.. pointing at the scars. I dont remember what she said. But she was shouting.. It was horrible. Then she got a huge knife and slowly started cutting me :(
I woke up so scared.. even thinking about it now makes me want to cry.
I dont know how to stop these awful dreams. I just want them to stop.. i keep going through phases of bad dreams, then im fine for a bit. Then they come back worse. Much worse.
/rant i guess.
Im just terrified of going to bed tonight, I keep having these horrible nightmares about self harm.. well im not sure if it is that. Its other people hurting me.. literally.
Like last night, a girl that used to bully me tied me to a chair.. pulled up my sleeves and was shouting at me.. pointing at the scars. I dont remember what she said. But she was shouting.. It was horrible. Then she got a huge knife and slowly started cutting me :(
I woke up so scared.. even thinking about it now makes me want to cry.
I dont know how to stop these awful dreams. I just want them to stop.. i keep going through phases of bad dreams, then im fine for a bit. Then they come back worse. Much worse.
/rant i guess.