Feeling like self harming?

[December]

So I know sometimes when I'm trying really hard not to self harm it helps just to talk about it, or even just to say out loud that I'm not going to do it. But since sometimes I can't do either of those things, I thought it might be helpful to me and all of you to just say why we want to, and why we are not going to do it or why we did.

For example, right now I really feel like cutting because I don't feel real. But I'm not going to do it because it's going to be 90 degrees tomorrow and I don't want to have a heatstroke hiding it.

[bambino]

Thats really good katy distracting yourself! well done :)

I want to because.. I've lost a lot of friends, had a bad night last night trying to go to a party for first time since I've been on my meds.

But I am not going to do it because I want to be able to wear what I want..it upsets my family when I do it..and because I'm beginning to think its wrong to abuse my body lately so I know I'd feel really guilty after.

stay strong xx

[Love.Hate]

I really like this idea.

I feel like cutting because im really fed up of staying strong, i need it. I dont want to hold on anymore. But im not going to because i dont want to break my 21 days.

Stay strong everyone. <3

[Magenta]

This is an awesome idea.

I feel like self-harming because I can't talk to my two closest friends who hurt me and I don't even think one cares. But I'm not going to because Fran has been helping by messages she leaves on the non-SH calendar and out of everyone right now, I don't want to disappoint her.

[sarah newman]

This Is Such A Good Idea (:

I Feel Like Cutting Because I Have Had A Bad Future, Lost Some Of My True Friends And My Mate Died :( Im Fed Up Of Keeping Strong, I Need It, This Is The Only Thing I CAN Control :)

[FullyAlive]

I like this :)

I want to cut because I ate.

[Love.Hate]

This is an awesome idea.

I feel like self-harming because I can't talk to my two closest friends who hurt me and I don't even think one cares. But I'm not going to because Fran has been helping by messages she leaves on the non-SH calendar and out of everyone right now, I don't want to disappoint her.

Proud of you Jo, try to keep strong sweetie. Even if it's a few days, small achievements are the best <3

[December]

I feel like cutting because my anxiety has been terrible today. But I'm not going to do it because I have swim practice tomorrow and I want to go in clean. Also chlorine is no fun on cuts.

[December]

Today I felt like self harming because one of my friends moms died and thinking about death really brings me down. But I'm not going to because that won't bring her back or help anyone, and it seems kind of silly wasting time to do o when it could be gone at any moment

[RadiantBlood]

Awesome idea! I'm glad you're sharing :)

I want to cut, because I can't stop thinking about how good it feels. But I hate to hide it. I want to see a doctor.. but thats a lot of money...

[Love.Hate]

I want to cut, because of all this Sh*t im going through.. but im not going to because its my birthday tomorrow and i dont want to be constantly nervous of people seeing.

[December]

Happy early birthday then Fran, hang in there :)

I want to cut to feel something, anything at all, but I'm not going to because it's too hard to hide during swim season. I think I will sleep instead

[Travis Is Losing It]

I feel like cutting and burning cause me and my girlfriend just broke up last night and ive been taking it hard. we love each other but shes moving and neither of us can manage a long distance relationship

[Live.Let.Love]

Just found this site.. i feel like cutting because my life is shit right now.. i have a 8 month old baby and am trying to finish school. my relationship is shit and to be honest i dont know if i wont cut. i went through a phase two years ago where i was hospitalized and i havent cut for about a year except for a week ago. im a 3 bedroom house with 7 people how do i feel so lonely?

[Magenta]

I want to cut because I want to die. I don't want to be 16 today. My dad told me that I survived. I don't feel like it.

But I'm not going to because my friends are right next to me.

[MadManWithaBox]

I want to cut more than I already have, I want to rip my arm, because I'm alone. And I used to have a friend, and now I don't. So I'm all alone. But I won't. Not sure why. Some crap about not giving up.

[December]

I want to cut because I feel so alone and just all mixed up inside, like I am drowning. I guess I'm not sure I won't, but I'll try because I know it will make me feel worse in the end.

[Iris]

i want to cut cuz i've been studying for two insanely hard finals for over 12 hours and since theyre my worst subjects im stil not realy getting the material. i've been cutting like every hr all day cuz of the stress. i probably will end up cutting again but i'm gonna try not to cuz i hate the way my arm is covered in dried blood and how there are bloddy tissues everywhere and i dont want any more

[LifeisLife]

I wanted to cut or self-harm in any way possible last friday and did the saturday night the after it....

[December]

I want to cut for the same reasons as always. I'm going to try not to I suppose. I don't want to hurt myself anymore but I can't stop

[December]

I want to cut again.... Honestly I am getting tired of fighting it all the time.

[MadManWithaBox]

I want to cut to block out the pain of the memories. I won't because I don't want to disappoint my spoon.

[Kiiraa]

Yesterday I felt like cutting because it was Father's Day. I have never known my dad and most likely never will. I've had a step-dad for the past year and a half and my mom kept going on and on and on.. I was just so emotionally overwhelmed.. I felt so alone and sobbing wasn't going anything so I resorted to the blade.. I didn't know what else to do in the moment..

[Ambrosia]

I want to cut right now because I just remembered that I am in the real world now. And no one will listen to me because no one believes somethings wrong...

But I'm not going to because I don't want to see that pained look on his face again...

[Love.Hate]

I want to cut cause im tired of staying strong, im just so tired with everything. Im not going to because he is helping me through it, i need to be strong for him. <3

[MadManWithaBox]

I would like to cut because of a bad situation. I won't for her <3

[RadiantBlood]

I want to cut to stop pretending

[December]

I want to cut so I can escape eveything I am feeling on the inside. But I won't because I'm trying to be better, I really am

[Cheri J]

I'm new to this website. And i've never really had anyone to talk to it about, and im hoping this might help. I want to cut to get away from reality and have control over something. I wont though because a certain someone would be dissappointed and right now that would only make it worse and make me want to do it more.

[December]

^^well you can always talk to us :)


I am feeling really paranoid and I feel like it would relax me. But I will try not to because I don't want to break my week of not doing it

[Chris25]

Re: First Time Cutting
Ive been cutting for bout 2 years now.. I started out doing it for attention at first.. Parents found out in a week... I told em i would stop and they forgot.. I didnt for bout 2 weeks after that for 2 months after that.. I didnt tell any1 but my gf who i trusted with my life.. She broke up with me one night and i blew up... I started cutting madly... She got sooo worried cuz she knew i was cutting.. She asked me if idid cut the nxt morning.. I told her yes.. That night she felt sooo bad and she regreted breaking up with me.. She cried out to her mom and told her mom that i had cut lots.. Her mom didnt kno what to do so she called my mom and my mom eventually found out after 2 hours of yelling... The nxt night i went to a mental hospital... They asked if i felt suicidal.. I said no which was a complete lie.. After asjing me a shit load of questions they said i just needed theripy and let me go home.. I couldnt cut for a good 3 months.. My mom checked me down to my boxers ever night.. I was dying inside and bout 2 end it all... 2 weeksafter the mental hospital i started going to theripy.. I didnt trust the guy at all... I told him nothing.. 8 months l8er my parents thought i had stopped cutting so i quit theripy.. I had to start taking anti-depressants everday.. I found a spot that was hidden by my boxers where i could cut... For the nxt year i hav been cutting over those scars... My new gf is also a cutter who just recently got caught and had to go to the mental hospital.. So far she is following the same path i took... We pormised eachother that if 1 of us cut the other would get a chance to.... I can go 2 weeks at a time with out cutting b4 i expolde and almost comit suicide.. I am curretly on the highest dosage of anti-depressants that thedoctors can give me... Nothing seems to help... I am falling apart... I need help and i know it... But i cant go 2 my parents... The same path will happen again.. And i cant handle that and i know my parents cant....how do i control the urges?????? Plz can somebody help me.. I am losing hope......

[Love.Hate]

I want to cut to prove that its not okay, that im still not okay. Im going to try not too cause i have to be strong for everyone else and try to set a good example.

:(

[Cheri J]

I want to cut because my relationship is really bad, and it worries me thinking about the future. I dont want to think at all. I just want my emotions to go away. Its only morning though so I wont cut. Maybe my day will get better and i wont have the need by tonight. :]

By the way: Thanks Katy :)

[PartyPoison]

I want to cut because I feel like I'm bit real and every thing is a dream.
But I'm not going to because I'm going to keep making paper stars

[Iris]

i want to cut because everything is pointless and existing is a waste of time and hurts too much. i want to cut because i want to be dead so badly. I'm not even sure why im posting here cuz rite now i have no reason, nothing, to stop me from cutting.

[CyanideGoodnight]

I want to cut because I feel this weird combination of numb, confused, upset, and slightly pissed. I'm not going to because I promiced my bestfriend I wouldnt.

[December]

I want to cut because everything is falling apart and in trying to hold myself together I'm really only tearing myself apart. But I won't because enough is going wrong that I don't need this on top of it all

[xdancing_for_rainx]

This is a pretty good idea(:

I want to cut because I feel like I let my dad down big time, and I just feel terrible about myself in general right now >.< I'm going to try not to because it sucks to hide new injuries all the time.

[insertusernamehere]

I want to cut because I want to show my friends that I'm not ok. I don't want to cut because I don't want my family to know I'm not ok.

[CyanideGoodnight]

I want to because I miss her and my week is crazy, and anxiety. I won't because I need to stay strong. I promiced myself a month and I'm hell-bent on keeping that promice.