JamesD
June 4th, 2011, 03:12 AM
I stumbled across this website a while ago and have finally had the courage to register, cause something has been bothering me for a while.
As you can probably guess based on where I'm posting this, I'm rather unsure about my sexuality. For starters, I'm 15 years old (and a guy) and have never had a relationship because to put it simply, I'm not sure whether I like guys or girls. It's not a simple as working out who I prefer over whom, because it's a bit complicated and I need a second opinion on the matter.
I'm fairly attracted to girls. I say fairly because I get along with girls really well (more than guys), and am physically attracted to them. But, whenever I see a masculine guy, I kinda feel the same way. Doesn't happen much, but I think it's more a comparative thing when it does.
But here comes the thing that's been bothering me. I'm physically attracted to a close friend of mine, but it's not a comparative thing. It's the real deal. He is quite close with me, and I get on with him very well. Probably more than most girls I know. It's both in a physical and emotional way.
And that scares me. No offense, but I don't want to be gay. I'm a logically thinking person and the logical way things work is for guys to be attracted to girls and vice versa, but this guy is mucking all of that up and I'm really not sure what is going on. It could just be a thing that'll pass eventually, but I really don't know. Cause it's starting to get worse. I'm becoming even more closer to him and thinking about him more when I should be thinking about girls.
I really don't know what's going on. I don't want to class myself as being gay, as I'm attracted to girls. I don't want to be bi even though sometimes I find myself looking at other guys and thinking about things I probably shouldn't, but apparently to be curious and comparative is normal. But I don't want to class myself as straight as I have these feelings towards my friend.
Any advice?
As you can probably guess based on where I'm posting this, I'm rather unsure about my sexuality. For starters, I'm 15 years old (and a guy) and have never had a relationship because to put it simply, I'm not sure whether I like guys or girls. It's not a simple as working out who I prefer over whom, because it's a bit complicated and I need a second opinion on the matter.
I'm fairly attracted to girls. I say fairly because I get along with girls really well (more than guys), and am physically attracted to them. But, whenever I see a masculine guy, I kinda feel the same way. Doesn't happen much, but I think it's more a comparative thing when it does.
But here comes the thing that's been bothering me. I'm physically attracted to a close friend of mine, but it's not a comparative thing. It's the real deal. He is quite close with me, and I get on with him very well. Probably more than most girls I know. It's both in a physical and emotional way.
And that scares me. No offense, but I don't want to be gay. I'm a logically thinking person and the logical way things work is for guys to be attracted to girls and vice versa, but this guy is mucking all of that up and I'm really not sure what is going on. It could just be a thing that'll pass eventually, but I really don't know. Cause it's starting to get worse. I'm becoming even more closer to him and thinking about him more when I should be thinking about girls.
I really don't know what's going on. I don't want to class myself as being gay, as I'm attracted to girls. I don't want to be bi even though sometimes I find myself looking at other guys and thinking about things I probably shouldn't, but apparently to be curious and comparative is normal. But I don't want to class myself as straight as I have these feelings towards my friend.
Any advice?