its back

[itswhatever_yep]

I recently have been able to go quite some time without feeling depressed but i know it will always come back and hit me hard. It comes and it goes it used to come and go alot but now its limited. I hate living through my happy moments knowing it will end at some point because eventually i go down even if nothings wrong. Tonight my depression is back and i cant stand it:( i ruin a lot of things when im in this state because i cant think straight. It's like i let everything thats bothered me through my happy stage come out finally sometimes i get it so bad i just really dont want to live anymore or i want to run away or something i abosolutely hate it and i dont know what to do my doctor thinks im bi polar and im supposed to go see someone about it so if i am i can get medicine but my last two appoinments have been cancelled because i've had other things i had to do and im hoping i get in very soon im so sick of these ups and downs i just want to be normal

[thesphinx]

i know what you mean(im clinically depressed, but my doc thinks i might have a little bipolar) i get ups and downs to, you really need to stay positive though in the downs keep saying to yourselft that its just a down and you will feel bettter again, you have to stay positive.
and get to the doc soon! meds will help alot.
if you wanna talk pm :)

[FailureAndHate]

I'm the exact same way. I'm in one of my little shit-holes right now, and it's been going on for a few days now. The worst part is I don't know how to explain it, and I've got to get through the weekend so I can see my therapists on Monday.