My life actually sucks.

[Fatty]

Im 14 and lately im just feeling that my life has just gotten progesively worse. My uncle who i lived with for four years recently died because the asshole did too much crack at a party and died that night. I loved him but i moved back to my mum's. For a year and bit i've been living with her now and its always the same; i wake up at 6.am to go to school and think about just running away so i can just sleep all day. I get to school and people who are meant to be my friends are talking to me less and less each day. Its not as if im getting less sociable, well i dont think so anyway; people at my school say im really funny but im just forgotten about and i dont understand why, it makes me feel really alone and just like literally no one cares about me, not even my uncle who said he would look after me and loved me killed himself. I havent had a girlfriend in like a year i feel like no girls like me even though like several times this year a girl has either asked me out or said she thought i was hot. My mum shouts at me for being too lazy, i dont do sport and that really annoys her, she wants me to be like my dad who played football and when i said that to her she hit me. My mum hits me with shit for no reason, but i love her and want to just make her dissapear at the same time.My Dad left my mum when i was young and she blamed me so thats why i was mvoed with my uncle, then he died so i had to move back with her in the area and sometimes when im out i see my dad and sometimes he sees me then i nearly cry on the fucking bus and sometimes i cant help but actually laugh .I fucking hate my life. When i do get invited out on the weekends my mum makes me stay home then later that night the people i was meant to be going out with post the pictures of their day out on Facebook and how much fun it looked, i feel like crying but i cant. I sometimes feel like killing myself and wonder why life should makes me feel like this. Then at the end of the day an advert about a child in Africa who has a worse life than me and i then feel guilty for feeling how i am. I seriously want to make it just all stop either by running away to somewhere far or killing myself. im so confused

[December]

It definitely sounds as if life hasn't been so kind to you lately. What you said about the African kid and all, I used to feel that way too. But what you have to realize is that though there may always be someone who has it worse, what you are feeling is specific to your life. What I mean is, for some people, a terrible day is failing a test or getting locked out of he house while for others it's coming home to abusive parents or not having a home to go to at all. Pain and perceived displeasure with ones life are relative things, so you shouldn't feel guilty for being unhappy with your life. To you it's a negative thing, and that's okay.

That being said, just know that your situation won't last forever. I know it's hard to see maybe, but there is a brighter future out there if you are wiling to try for it. As cheesy as that may sound, things can and will improve for you. I often feel he same as you described, but someday things will be different. Until then, stay strong, and if you ever need to talk I'll be around.

[Spinner]

I know how ya feel when u said people forget about ya I feel that all the time it's ok it will get better even when u feel like people don't like u there is always someone out there that does u may not see that person but there is.