Why am I never good enough?

[Magenta]

I don't plan ahead, I never know what I want, it was too last minute, I'm going on a "tirade". All I wanted to do was spend some time with my mum because none of my friends wanted to hang out with me. She spends all this time nagging me to go out with her but says she's "busy" when I ask her. She's just reading a book.

All my life, I've never been good enough. She teases me and jokes with me but will lecture me for anything. I can't even sit down without some comment being made about it.

I can't cry. My mum will get mad at me and say I'm blaming her. I can never cry.

I'm miserable here. I want to cry. I want to run away. I'm so sick of this. I feel worthless.

Edit: My mum actually just came up to me while I was curled up on the couch looking upset and said "What is wrong with you?". I've never been good enough for anyone. I wish I was never born.

[music is my soul]

dont say your not good enough because itll make you feel worse. and just tell your mom that you want to hang out some time and ask wen shes free. its not really planning ahead if thats wat would stop ya. and sometimes all you hav to do is wat your doing now and ask for some help wen your feeling crappy. sry if thats a little confusing or doesnt help.

[Nancy Boy]

Don't let your mom get you down.
~My mom is the same way.
it is your life. dont just sit there in self-pity when you could be up trying to do something about it. go have some fun. find friends to hang out with. theyll help you escape alittle.
never regret anything.
live for tomorrow, not in the past.

[MattVon]

I've must admit I've heard this a lot, I'd say it's just a phase you're going for (I'd hope anyway, I dislike parents who can be disrespectful and mock without giving love). Maybe she doesn't want to cramp your style, because if you was to get your way and chill with her, that you might become used to it and well self explanatory really; who knows. But if she gets mad when you're upset and accuse you of blaming her then that's just a big no no.

Think of it like this, your mum gave birth to you, gave you a home, etc, etc, etc, etc. Running away will solve nothing, honestly. Ride it through and do things you enjoy rather then dwell on things that make you sad.