Insecurity ruins sanity.

[Grayeyes]

I'm just gonna say it so it goes away...
I hate it when I don't please people. Because so many people in my school have hated me. Maybe because I'm annoying, maybe because i talk too much.
Maybe they just need someone to hate on.
I feel so weird writing this. I don't usually vent.

I know i haven't done anything bad to them. I never spread rumors. I never backstab and spread secrets. So what is it that made them hate me?
And why do I even care what they think about me? I think it's because i just don't like the fact that someone doesn't like me. I know not EVERY person in the world can like me. It's just my insecurity. I am insecure about pleasing people(weird huh?) I don't know why i even have that insecurity. My family is good to me and so are the friends i love...
I need to get over it. I can't lose my sanity. Not now not ever. I should stop trying so hard to have people like me and think about the ones i do have and love, right?
Highschool is a tough world. I don't want to become one of those girls in school that are so self-centered and selfish.
I can be better. And unlike them, i care about grades. I care about getting into a good college, good job and to be able to raise a good family in the (wayyy) future. Get a hold of yourself, grayeyes.
/rant.

[Fiction]

I think this is a sort of phase that everyone goes through, where they want to be liked by everyone and when it bothers them when they're not. Most people however, get to a point in life where they just don't care anymore, where they can deal with it and I guess you just have to wait to get there.

[Magenta]

Don't beat yourself up about feeling this way. Everyone goes through it. I spent most of my school life being bullied, teased, made fun of... etc. I had always been insecure. I think, though, that I ended up realizing that I am who I am and if people don't like that, that's their problem. I'm still not the most popular, I'm still sort of weird. Now that's not to say I never feel insecure. High school is vicious and can result in a lot of insecurity.

What I try to remember when I feel no good is that there ARE people who like me even if I don't see it right away. They are the people worth your time. You'll be okay. :)

I'm always around if you need to talk.

[Grayeyes]

Thank you.
Fiction, you're right.. I will at some point get to that. still a looong way till i'm done with puberty anyway :P
Nathuagyn, yeah I should focus on those that love me and care for me rather than trying to please others who don't want me to... and i am happy where i've gotten and who i've become so far... maybe i just block that bit out of my mind sometimes...

[Magenta]

:hug: How're you doing?

[Fiction]

Thank you.
Fiction, you're right.. I will at some point get to that. still a looong way till i'm done with puberty anyway :P

It might be a while, but you will get there, and you'll begin to wonder why you ever cared in the first place :P

I know it's upsetting now, but as Jo said, concentrate on the many people who do like you, because i'm sure there's plenty :)

[Grayeyes]

It might be a while, but you will get there, and you'll begin to wonder why you ever cared in the first place :P

I know it's upsetting now, but as Jo said, concentrate on the many people who do like you, because i'm sure there's plenty :)

school's coming in fast, i miss the few true friends i have.
I've had a lot of "friends" before but they just end up leaving me and joining in with other particularly "popular" people. (ugh, i hate that term)
Maybe that's why i feel insecure about people liking me.
Well, it's a new school year. Maybe i'll make new friends :)

:hug: How're you doing?

i'm actually doing better. I feel better. In the few days after i made this thread, i realized i don't need to worry about this really...
Maybe i was just having a bad day and it caused mood swings or...something :)

Sanity, you still with me? Yes, you are! Lol. XD

Thank you for supporting me on this. :hug:

[RoseyCadaver]

Hey sorry to hear about that,people can be rather mean.Don't worry love,you can't please everyone,just aim to please yourself :).

[Grayeyes]

Hey sorry to hear about that,people can be rather mean.Don't worry love,you can't please everyone,just aim to please yourself :).

Yes, i know that now. And I will try to think of myself and the ones close to me more rather than those who don't really care whether I please them or not. It's what's needed...