so my best friend called me out on it last night...

[love is louder]

she decided to wait until she was drunk and we were sat at the beach at 2am to bring it up.
she told me she knew i still did it and asked me why. ans suddenly i had no idea what to say. she asked me how long and i said it started when i was about 8 because she was asking me about stuff that happened a while a go and i was like "no its not just because of that" and she was like well why not. then i told her that it was for all sorts of reasons like different reasons everything i did it and she basically said it was a rubbish answer and kept going at me and i just wanted to punch her. i know that a feeling comes over me that i need to and so i do but there can be many things that trigger me to feel like that

my question is. are you guys the same as me. is there a different reason every time you do it or is it just a feeling that you need to with nothing influencing it or is it for one particular reason?

[anonymous53]

With me, it's a lot of things. A lot of things can set me off. Also going a long time without doing it causes me to feel like I "need" it.
I doubt she was Waiting till she was drunk. People just can't keep their mouth shut when they're drunk

[Forest Rose]

I self harm for a lot of different reasons- it's not always the same thing. I've self-harmed in all kinds of different states: numb, rushing, sad, angry, you name it. It annoys me when people ask "Why do you do it?" and expect a simple answer so that they can tell you to stop doing it.

She shouldn't have said it was a rubbish answer, especially when you were trying to explain it to her. But again there is the fact that she was drunk at the time and probably not at her most understanding and sensible. If she ever says anything like that again, maybe you could just say what you've said to us? That there isn't one particular reason, and sometimes it even seems as if there isn't any reason.

[Indecision]

I've only ever used to do it when lots of little things had been building up. Then something tops it and makes me crash down, when there's too much to think about, then I guess that's why I do it.

[Love.Hate]

It used to be because of the same thing... but then even small things would set me off.. now its a different reason everytim i do it. so your totally normal :)

[Syvelocin]

Most of the time, it's because someone pissed me off, but less than that because I'm quite sensitive, I'll get mad over very little (my bipolar disorder). So technically, it does vary, but I do it when I'm upset, and the only time I get upset is when I'm interacting socially. I've done it for no reason, but that's usually the main part.

[FullyAlive]

Usually it's completely different reasons, I have the main reasons but different situations and different events set me off. And the times where I'm just feeling like I really need it, no reason no trigger, just a want.

[Fiction]

I remember the first time I did it it was because I felt totally numb, and wanted to feel something. Since then it's just kind of become my coping mechanism for everything. So yeah I guess a different reason every time now.

[LifeisLife]

I havent done it a lot (only 2 cuts up to now) but every time I did it it was because of different reasons.

[love is louder]

thanks guys. its so hard to talk about how i feel when i know im right (because of you lot) and noone else thinks so. it just really frustrated me when i was trying to explain and she said it wasnt a good enough reason.

also she told me that she had done it (which i kinda guessed) and then said that it was a stupid thing to do and then tried to make me feel guilty about it when im going to therapy for my problems and she refuses.

she just annoys me
rant over :)