My ex

[BrokenXPaperXDolls]

Well thats it, things happened i gave him a choice and he didnt take it and thats it. he was pissed at me and wouldnt tell me why and we had an argument and now even though he was my ex we wont be talking anymore because of it.

i know that without me in his life he will get on with his brother more and friends as i dont think they like me. wow i didnt realise how much the thought of not even being able to talk/see him hurts, i mean he was the only one who could realy make me happy and not just faking being happy.

i cant stop crying and i had a manger binge but thats a diffrent issue to do with an ED. I hope he convinces himself that its all my fault as i cant stand the thought of him hurting and it makes me cry more. I dont care if he hates me aslong as he isnt sad. god he breaks my heart again and again and i cant hate him. i dont blame him if he dosnt like me and i know he can do better and he will be happier without me. :( I just wanted to get this all of my chest and i hope the pain will ease abit but i keep thinking im gonna break and the tears are realy starting to annoy me. :(:cry:

[anonymous53]

:hug: I can't really understand your post..can you reword? :|

[BrokenXPaperXDolls]

:hug: I can't really understand your post..can you reword? :|

ya crying does that to ya ill try to edit it for ya no worries

[anonymous53]

Paula. You'll find someone else :) You'll find someone great...

[BrokenXPaperXDolls]

Paula. You'll find someone else :) You'll find someone great...

Thanks :)

I never thought that knowing i wont talk to him again or see him again would hurt so much. Also the fact that he was my first boyfriend dosnt realy help things:( i want him to find some reason to hate me so he wont be sad

[anonymous53]

Hurt him a lot if you want him to have a reason. Tell him your hate him. Insult him. Break him completely so that he can be happy eventually.

[BrokenXPaperXDolls]

Hurt him a lot if you want him to have a reason. Tell him your hate him. Insult him. Break him completely so that he can be happy eventually.


I think he will hate me soon as he always does anyway when he is sad or i hope he does. I cant be perposfully mean to him though as im the one who gets sad in the end as i hate the thought of hurting him. he always gets upset and sad with me because of this as he dosnt think i should care about him after he keeps breaking my heart, or he keeps questioning it. Wow i sound realy whiny and clingy but im not and he knows that. but as resently he was always thinking i was faking my feelings once he found out about some of my problems, i guess today was when we both snapped:( im probably not making much sense sorry :(