Worst relapse

[Nevermore]

So I started eating to gain weight to make my doctors happy once I start day treatment which is the 6th. I figured well they'll let me go early if my weight goes up now. I got to 105 lbs. I know, not that much from before, but things changed. I started purging, abusing laxatives, and well I eat pratically nothing. I eat almost a little over half an apple and I feel sick, and can't eat it. I wake up in the morning nausious. (Has anyone else have this happen) Note: I'm a virgin so I'm obviously not pregnant. I also get nausious after I eat now. I eat 500 or under calories. And well let's just say I'm losing at least 3 lbs a week. I'm spiraling down. I guess my idea now is that if I have a weight of like 80 lbs maybe they will make me go up to 90 lbs and I'm okay with 90. I'm just not okay above 105 lbs. I'm not ready for that. I don't want that!!! I won't get up that far and they can't make me, no matter how hard they try!! >.<

[Fiction]

Sammy I know it's hard to deal with treatment. I'm just starting treatment too now and it's making me feel like i need to lose weight to almost prove that there's something wrong. I guess i know deep down that's ridiculous.

My advice would be to take all the help you can get. They're target weight for you won't change. You'll just end up having to put on more weight, which i'm sure you won't be happy with.

Can I ask how tall you are?

[Nevermore]

I think I'm 5"4 point something my doctor said awhile back ago. It's hard and I'm glad you got help too. You're right, gaining more weight would be more of a killer for me. It's just so hard to give into that. Argh really frustrates me to the point I want to scream. I don't want anymore weight on me. Thank you Kathy for your response. <3
Last time I weighed myself was two days ago and I know I lost more since then and two days ago I was 100 lbs.

[Fiction]

You're about the same height as me. Surly at 105lb they'd be happy with that weight...?

[Nevermore]

Maybe I don't know, last time I was there I weighed in about 95 lbs. So I'm not sure exactly what they want since before I lost all my weight I was 115 lbs normal, and I was 119 at my highest.

[Fiction]

Yeah similar to me... at m highest I was 108lb and at my lowest I was 95lb.

[anonymous53]

The nausea yes I have had that. The doctors attributed it to me not being used to eating that much, and had me slowly increase the amount of food I ate every day. Like started out at really small portions and made my way back up to normal portions.

Sammy, just take your time. It takes a LOT of time to get back, just let the doctors try to help you :)
As Kat said... the doctors aren't going to change your target weight. Most likely they'll want you over 110lb. They'll use a BMI scale.