Indecision
May 25th, 2011, 02:20 PM
Eugh, I'm so confused on what to do, wether to get over him, 'cause I try to.
So there's this guy, Ed. Why don't I just call him by his name? :p. Ed. And, we've been friends since January. Okay, so close-friends-wise, it's not that long. But really, since we met, we bonded so well it was incredible, and I started to love him. Trouble is? He loved one of my really close friends D: .
It was really hard for me, 'cause even everyone said, she was leading him on. She'd go up to him and kiss him, throw her arms around him. And he'd say stuff to her, and it was, argh. So that's what those days revolved around.
Recently, when she got a boyfriend, they stopped talking, and became further and further apart, starting arguing, even. And bless him, y'know when the world was supposed to end at 11pm on the 21st May? Well he started to believe it, SO unlike him, but so sweet at the same time. He said to me, 'You know that girl i've been obsessing over?'
'Yes?' I said, kinda not wanting to hear the next part, just incase.
'She's got nothing on youuh.'
And he said how she doesn't need him to love her etc etc, and how blind he was.
And since then, we hadn't really had a close conversation.
We'd stopped talking, really, for no reason. Okay, we'd make the littlest comment on each other status everyone now and then. But that's nothing.. I just cried the other day, 'cause I didn't want to contact him, just incase he didn't want to talk to me, and i'd rather not know than know the worst to be honest. But I had to talk to him, and I did. I just said, 'Why have we stopped talking?' And then he just replied with, 'Katie, tomorrow think of some things interesting for us to talk about, yes?' And hugged me. Er, I didn't really think 'cause I was just so happy our friendship wasn't 'over'.
And today, he blanked me in the morning, per-usual. But at break he sat behind me with his legs crossed, and we were just chatting, as if nothing ever happened. Chatting about things we used to talk about it. Then we ended break and I was laying on his lap, leaning on him and we were just talking, like we used to, and better 'cause I was closer to him. But at lunch, that's, it, blanked me again. Just before I left though, he said 'Just thought I'd say hi before I pop off, 'cuz you're so freakin' amazing.'
And a load of other stuff. Oh, I don't know what to think! I love him, yet he's been acting strangely recently, anyone can figure this out? :s
So there's this guy, Ed. Why don't I just call him by his name? :p. Ed. And, we've been friends since January. Okay, so close-friends-wise, it's not that long. But really, since we met, we bonded so well it was incredible, and I started to love him. Trouble is? He loved one of my really close friends D: .
It was really hard for me, 'cause even everyone said, she was leading him on. She'd go up to him and kiss him, throw her arms around him. And he'd say stuff to her, and it was, argh. So that's what those days revolved around.
Recently, when she got a boyfriend, they stopped talking, and became further and further apart, starting arguing, even. And bless him, y'know when the world was supposed to end at 11pm on the 21st May? Well he started to believe it, SO unlike him, but so sweet at the same time. He said to me, 'You know that girl i've been obsessing over?'
'Yes?' I said, kinda not wanting to hear the next part, just incase.
'She's got nothing on youuh.'
And he said how she doesn't need him to love her etc etc, and how blind he was.
And since then, we hadn't really had a close conversation.
We'd stopped talking, really, for no reason. Okay, we'd make the littlest comment on each other status everyone now and then. But that's nothing.. I just cried the other day, 'cause I didn't want to contact him, just incase he didn't want to talk to me, and i'd rather not know than know the worst to be honest. But I had to talk to him, and I did. I just said, 'Why have we stopped talking?' And then he just replied with, 'Katie, tomorrow think of some things interesting for us to talk about, yes?' And hugged me. Er, I didn't really think 'cause I was just so happy our friendship wasn't 'over'.
And today, he blanked me in the morning, per-usual. But at break he sat behind me with his legs crossed, and we were just chatting, as if nothing ever happened. Chatting about things we used to talk about it. Then we ended break and I was laying on his lap, leaning on him and we were just talking, like we used to, and better 'cause I was closer to him. But at lunch, that's, it, blanked me again. Just before I left though, he said 'Just thought I'd say hi before I pop off, 'cuz you're so freakin' amazing.'
And a load of other stuff. Oh, I don't know what to think! I love him, yet he's been acting strangely recently, anyone can figure this out? :s