I cant do it anymore

[moon_lit_angel]

I've snapped again,
i went 23 days without self harm and i snapped, 4 days in a row now :(
i cant handle it anymore
i had to see my abuser of 2 years tonight, i couldnt get away, i had to see him!
he came to my house :(

My parents don't know.. i really cant cope anymore..

i just, i just feel like giving up but after thursday night's suicide awareness cd launch i cant :(


I dont know what to do, i cant ask for help, theres noone to ask :(

[EarthToBryan]

Don't give up, even if you don't think you have any reason to live, you do. The people around you love you, even me, a stranger, see value in you. If I, who have never met you in my life can see how much you are worth, than just think of how much you are worth to the people who have watched you grow from a child, or go through high school. And you can ask for help, you are doing it right now with us. We are in this together and if anything, just keep talking, asking, thinking. If you need to talk, about anything, anything at all, or you need a shoulder to cry on, or a friend to ask even the smallest question, talk to me, or anyone else on this site. We all want to help you in any way possible, and the only way we can is if you talk to us. I hope my post, at the very least, shows you that there are people out there who care, and want to help you. Please, message me or any of the others and we will talk you through whatever you are feeling, or whatever happens to you.

[moon_lit_angel]

Don't give up, even if you don't think you have any reason to live, you do. The people around you love you, even me, a stranger, see value in you. If I, who have never met you in my life can see how much you are worth, than just think of how much you are worth to the people who have watched you grow from a child, or go through high school. And you can ask for help, you are doing it right now with us. We are in this together and if anything, just keep talking, asking, thinking. If you need to talk, about anything, anything at all, or you need a shoulder to cry on, or a friend to ask even the smallest question, talk to me, or anyone else on this site. We all want to help you in any way possible, and the only way we can is if you talk to us. I hope my post, at the very least, shows you that there are people out there who care, and want to help you. Please, message me or any of the others and we will talk you through whatever you are feeling, or whatever happens to you.



Thanks bryan :) i know that im asking for help on here but i need HELP and i cant do it :(

[EarthToBryan]

If you don't ask for help, or at least talk about it to someone, people won't know that you need help. It sounds like you need to talk to someone who has the power to keep whoever abused you out of your life. I know that asking for help is extremely hard, god do I know, but it is the only way through it. Your school counselor is a good place to start, unless you can talk to your parents about it (Can be very hard, but is the most effective long term option). I don't know what the situation is, but if you can go to your parents, even if you aren't close, they WILL help you. I found a good post on this at http://www.dailystrength.org/c/Shyness/advice/11970978-talking-school-counselor

[Weeping]

Everyone slip once in a while. Who was your abuser?

And.. Do you have any close friends? Counselor at school maybe? Or your parents? Cause you should talk to someone about it! Maybe you could get a psychologist?

Is someone aware of your self-harm?

I'm always here if you want to talk! <3

[Xenon96]

I know its difficult but telling a parent would help so much. They can help you sort the problem. Self harm isn't going to help, hurting yourself isn't going to make you feel better about yourself. Just try and do things that cheer you up, take your mind off things.

Good luck :)

[Spook]

Why did you have to see him/her? If I were you, I would have told him/her to go away and never come back. I wouldn't want to see them! Did something happen that night that triggered something? We can't help you much if we don't know what went on.

Try to stay away from that person, it will only bring bad memories and further complications. Stay strong, Sandra, and brave through this. It isn't the end, and you don't deserve pain. :)

[moon_lit_angel]

If you don't ask for help, or at least talk about it to someone, people won't know that you need help. It sounds like you need to talk to someone who has the power to keep whoever abused you out of your life. I know that asking for help is extremely hard, god do I know, but it is the only way through it. Your school counselor is a good place to start, unless you can talk to your parents about it (Can be very hard, but is the most effective long term option). I don't know what the situation is, but if you can go to your parents, even if you aren't close, they WILL help you. I found a good post on this at http://www.dailystrength.org/c/Shyness/advice/11970978-talking-school-counselor

I know if i dont ask for help i wont get the help i need. its not that i dont want help, i need help, i'm not in school, and the school i was in doesnt have a counsellor, i cant talk to my parents about it because its family.

Everyone slip once in a while. Who was your abuser?

And.. Do you have any close friends? Counselor at school maybe? Or your parents? Cause you should talk to someone about it! Maybe you could get a psychologist?

Is someone aware of your self-harm?

I'm always here if you want to talk! <3

i wish i didnt slip i was doing so well, someone in my family.. no i've none that i can tell. im not in school or college i work n a hotel. noone is aware of my self harm

I know its difficult but telling a parent would help so much. They can help you sort the problem. Self harm isn't going to help, hurting yourself isn't going to make you feel better about yourself. Just try and do things that cheer you up, take your mind off things.

Good luck :)

sometimes your not able to tell your parents

Why did you have to see him/her? If I were you, I would have told him/her to go away and never come back. I wouldn't want to see them! Did something happen that night that triggered something? We can't help you much if we don't know what went on.

Try to stay away from that person, it will only bring bad memories and further complications. Stay strong, Sandra, and brave through this. It isn't the end, and you don't deserve pain. :)

because they came to visit, and i couldn't get away. i cant tell him to stop coming because its a relative!
no nothing just any time i see him..!

[EarthToBryan]

If you tell your parents they can keep this person away. Nothing is going to make them act quicker than knowing their child is in harms way, unless there are unusual circumstances. I know that if I had a child, and they were being abused that I would do anything to stop it. Why don't you want to tell your parents, do you think that they would not help? It may not sound like it through this text, but I mean this in the most sympethetic way. :yes:

[moon_lit_angel]

Bryan its not as easy as that tho :( i wish it was, i really do :( but i know that if i tell then the whole family will split apart and i cant handle that, it'll be worse then.. :( :'(

[EarthToBryan]

It would help us help you if we had a bit more information about the situation, but I think that you might not feel comfortable with this if you haven't included it yet (which is completely OK). I think that the most helpful thing you could do is maybe ask your parents if you could go to a counselor, maybe say it is for something other than what you really want to talk about. What you talk about witha counselor or therapist is completely in confidence, and eventually you might be ready to talk to your family about it. That "family spilt" thing is pretty heavy, but nothing can change what happened. There are obviously problems that need to be addressed, and if there is a way to minimize the damage done to your family I think that would be the best, but definitely not the easiest road to take.

[moon_lit_angel]

what do you want to know?? I've had alot of abuse and stuff like that happen to me in the past few years...

[georgiamay]

Hun, you're 19. You could report this to the police and your parents don't need to know a thing. It would help if they knew, but I know it's not that easy.

Going to the police will be scary, but he's abusing you, and he has absolutely no right to, and it needs to end. I know it'll be beyond difficult, there's not a word to describe just how hard it will be for you, but wouldn't you be greatful for it when it's all over and you're not being abused any more?

[RisaLeigh16]

I would definately go to the police and write a report. He could be doing the same thing to a younger family member just like he did to you. I would try to stay strong and maybe get a restraining order or somthing along those lines. Hope i helped :)

[moon_lit_angel]

its hard tho