a teeny tiny bit of success..(:

[bambino]

so I dont know if you guys know, I'm not attending college right now I'm only going in for exams. Yesterday I went in and was mega anxious about being around people when I feel so damn ugly [I have BDD body dysmorphia]. But I did it, I avoided big crowds but I did it. My friends even dragged me into town, I had lunch and wanted to throw up after because i was so nervous but I didnt let myself.

Then I saw my ex and his new girlfriend who both glared at me and sat down like a table away. Normally I would have freaked out and gone home, or to the toilets or wherever and self harmed because they make me feel so shit. I had the urge but I distracted myself. I refused to get up and leave because they were there and made myself ride it out.
I told my friend how I felt and she talked me through it and I calmed down.

I was still felt a bit vulnerable afterwards so instead of going home and being alone [and probably self harming] I took a bus to a friends house.

So..yeah sorry for rambling but I'm quite pleased that I resisted the urge. I know there will be more tough times in future but I'm really trying.
it just shows we can beat this, one little triumph at a time (:

[FullyAlive]

well done, thats the spirit. You can fight each and every single urge. You've done it once. Now you can do it time and time again, just keep working at it.
:hug:

[bambino]

thankyou louise! >.< hope you're okay

[BrokenXPaperXDolls]

Thats great:D well done

[Fiction]

That really is amazing. Fighting against your own mind is not fun, and a hard thing to do but you did it! You've shown yourself that you can do it once, now you can do it again :)

[anonymous53]

Very nice job Bambi! :D
Awesome :) I'm glad you had a good day.

[rissa-_-]

it's a good thing to go against what's normal for you. you should be proud of this accomplishment.

[Love.Hate]

Thats really good! Keep fighting and stay strong, now you have done it once you know and have proven to yourself you can do it again :D

[bambino]

thank you all (: you're so sweet
I hope you realise how strong you all are and keep fighting the urges too xx

[Grey Squirrel]

That's great! ^_^

[SilenceForSilence]

You have quite a bit to be proud of. I'm glad there are still fighters like you.

[bambino]

thank you both ^_^
im sure everyone on here is capable of fighting the urges and abstaining from this horrible addiction xx

[Passion]

It's inspiring to know how well you handled everything, keep at it! :)