In Love With Love

[Syvelocin]

I just had my first date in a really long time. I've "hung out," but I think this is the first time I'd call it a date.

I met up with Liz and two others of our close friends and went to a little sort of market they were having down in one of the outdoor shopping centres. You know, food, music, stuff to buy, balloon animals. We just walked around hand-in-hand looking at stuff, getting some Japanese food to eat, listening to the horrible band covering everything from Lady Gaga to Michael Jackson to The Rolling Stones. It was very simple, but something about it was just so fun. Of course, it was being with her that was the main part of it. I don't know. When I'm around her, everything feels so simple and easy, and the world looks sharper and more vivid.

But I blushed bright red when she kissed me, in front of everyone. And this is the south, so it's even more of a concern in my head, but she didn't care, it was amazing :wub: She bought me a few hemp bracelets (bracelets are pretty much my thing now, but I can't wear them yet because I fear they would rub against my new tattoo and the other wrist has a couple already).

And because Jay just flew out so he could spend a week with his dad who has ALS and is getting to the point where he's having difficulty breathing even, I'm staying with Liz (I have a bit of an issue with being alone). So now I'm typing this with Radiohead's In Rainbows playing while she's making popcorn and we're going to watch a bit of 30 Rock.

:wub:

I really don't deserve any of this.

She's it. I just know it. This is really what I want. I don't know if I could say those words to Jay though. I'm too scared to hurt him.

I want to give this a go. I can't find words to describe how she makes me feel. She's the most amazing person I've ever met.

[anonymous53]

I'm glad your first date went well Rith! :)
Go for her :) I mean, someone will get hurt, it's best that you come out happy.

Also, I'd warn you. Wait as long as you can before you choose. This is like the "honeymoon" period where you're completely infatuated with her.

[emt.Cam]

Glad to hear this Rith :)

I must say, it's great that you're utterly happy with this person. Feelings that you can't describe, really make it so much better because you WANT to try to tell us. Believe me, I know what you're feeling. In the end, it's what makes you happy. Things happen for a reason and you need to put yourself first. You can't always do for other people all the time; it needs to be yourself. You are what matters most, so make yourself happy.

[The Madness.]

That really made me happy reading that, that's great Rith. :)

Jay seems to be a pretty understanding guy. You can't hold off to telling him though, because it'll make it worse. I think you should just tell him. He's in love with you, right? He'll just want you happy and then he'll be happy. With you or without you.

[Glider]

Awh, this is so cute! I'm happy for you. :) And if this person truly makes you happy over your current relationship, I'd say go for it. It may hurt someone, or multiple someones, but if it's what you find you need, you should take the chance you have.

[Trickster]

I love this period. Everything is good and rainbows
Try to keep this period as long as you can. Now its the beginning so take it at your own pace. You really seem to like this girl, so go for it and get to know her more and have fun.
First dates...either go SPECTACULAR!!!!!...Nice...or Disaster. There is 2 extremes and 1 medium. So dont think too heavily because the date didnt have fireworks and what-not. If it was as nice date, look at the positives because when u look back your gonna make it fun.
Enjoy this period and go for this girl because she likes you <3

[Syvelocin]

Thanks everyone ^_^ Yeah, I think I'll tell him when he gets back. I know it's not fair to him, I just tend to focus on what others want more than what I want. But I know now that's not going to get me anywhere, and I should be thinking of myself.

I know her pretty well already. We've been friends since I moved here and I got up the courage a couple months back to say that I like her. And for once, someone I like also likes girls. :P I always seem to fall for the straight girls.

[AutumnDae]

I realize this situation is completely different, but I feel like a lot of relationships go bad for the lack of dates. People get together, and after a while, they stop going out, and they just hang out and do the same thing every time. I can say from experience, that there is a limit on how many times you can go over to someone's house and watch a movie with them before it gets boring.

As for your situation, I'm glad it's all working out for you! :) i would definitely keep the lines of communication with Jay open on everything though. If he knows what's going on, he'd probably be more understanding and open than if you just dumped it on him all of a sudden.