mranderson
May 18th, 2011, 09:35 PM
So uhm yeh, i havnt posted on the forum in a hell of a long time just because i rly have been useing the computer to much in a while but this is kind of a wierd thing or so i think. At night, ill hop into bed, throw some music on and just like, sit there, cause im usually not tired when i go to bed, so i sit there, and think, cause i have nothing better to do. and i think of horrible things that i have done in my life, or things i gave up on in my life that i love. And i go completly insane jsut sitting there, i want to rip my skin off, and its usually about the same thing, like for the past 5 days i have been upset cause of complicated shit between me and my best friend, and i seem completly fine right now, but i garantee in 45 minutes im going to be so upset. last night, my friend told me she didnt want me to come see her in the mornign anymore, cause thats what i usually do, and i sent her a text later, telling her about all this shit about how i wish she would have just told me before and stuff. And everything is just gonna get worse, cause every day she keeps drifting away and yeh, it really sucks, so i just kinda wanted to put that out there.