Too Much

[Kaesaj]

I don't know how to start this out, so I guess I'll just jump into it.
The last week or two I've been going through more than I usually do, but I've been staying strong and dealing with it. But today was just the straw that broke the camel's back. One of my friends is suicidal (I have a post about her) and I still don't know how to help, my best friend moved a hundred miles away and is depressed and cutting and there's absolutely NOTHING I can do, one of my friends is being wrongfully accused of rape and i was there that night so he's trying to get help from me, the death of my uncle, and my parents are just treating me like shit in general. And getting ready for college soon. It's just too much for me to handle.

I'm breaking down. Too many things are going on for my mind to handle and i don't know what to do. I know it's not as bad as a lot of things other people deal with, but it's a lot for me. Fortunately I gave my knife to my buddy so I don't have that tempting me, but I just don't know what to do.

If no one reads that, I don't blame you, I just needed to vent. Thanks guys.

[djrandom]

Hey if anything you can talk to me without feeling judged or anything im here for you :)

[Kaesaj]

Thanks DJ, it means a lot, I'll remember that. (were you aware that we share the same name?)

I messed up big time. I ended up cutting tonight.

[Fiction]

You just need to find a way to deal with all these things, and a thing that isn't cutting. Maybe you could try writing and venting all your feelings down on a piece of paper? If you do this when you want to cut i've found that it sometimes helps.

As for all these things going on, remember that they are all temporary. That they will all be over sometime and you will be able to carry on your life as normal afterwards :)

[anon1992]

yes, this is terrible. espescially that false accusation of rape thing. id rather be raped than be falsely accused of it and go to jail. maybe you could try telling the police about the fact that you know he did not do it. then they would have a witness in his favor.

im so glad you gave that knife away so that you wont hurt yourself with it anymore. i hope college goes well for you, im going off to college next year as well. you will meet a lot of new people there and will have fun despite the fact that your best friend has moved far away.

good luck.