Am I being punished?

[MadManWithaBox]

All this stuff. Getting nearly murdered. Raped. All the stuff in between. 12 years of being having the shit kicked out of me every day. And now I have cancer. Is god punishing me for something? Or someone punishing me? There must be a reason for all this for to happen to one person, right?

[Spook]

I don't think we will ever know why God chooses to punish certain people out of the billions that live on Earth. This post struck me, in a way. My mom always said, "Is god punishing me for something? Why are my kids dropping out of school?" All of that. But...we never knew. It seems you have it much worse though. I read your other post..about life...and I am so sorry to hear that. But you have to keep your head held high and let nothing phase you. Work through it. I know, easier said than done, but you have to try your hardest. Everybody on VT is rooting for you, Matthew. :D

[georgiamay]

Personally, I don't believe in God, so I can't really relate to this.

But isn't God supposed to be all loving and forgiving? He wouldn't put you through hell as a punishment. And honestly, what have you done wrong? Considering your age, it's not like you've had enough time to go around sinning and disobeying God and what not.
I don't think God is punishing you, because I don't think there is a God, and even if there was, I don't think he'd make a person go through all of that.
Plus, he gave humans free will. What other people have done to you, they did out of free will, God didn't make them do anything.
And even if God is making this happen, it's not for a punishment, because isn't that what hell is for? No, maybe it's a test, a test of faith, or a test of strength. You got through all of the things that you went through, and you can get through this as well, and maybe God wants you to prove that you can.

And, a lot of people think that those who suffer are actually a lot closer to God, so maybe this isn't such a bad thing. That sounds awful, of course this is a bad thing. But don't forget, getting through this will make you a much stronger person.

I'm here if you need me, yeah? :hug3:

[ackmedsgirl666]

it isn't the power of god hun... it happens to everybody at some points in theie lifes whether it is being beaten or raped or even in your circumstance getting cancer( i am terrible terribly sorry) i really hope you get better but unless u are extreme;y concerned about it talk to someone. as for the cancer i hope chemo goes well and u pull through :)

[MadManWithaBox]

It feels like I'm just about to break here, and snap. But I can't, can I? I have to be the strong one. I have to be the one who helps everyone else deal with the fact I got raped, I got stabbed, I got cancer. I have to.

[Love.Hate]

Its okay to breakdown, you dont need to be strong for everyone else.

I dont believe in God. But i dont think you would be deliberatly punished, i think you have just had it unlucky in life. But its made you a stronger person. Maybe its a test, to see how strong you are, and how you can pull through so much. And anyway what have you done to be punished for?- Nothing. Everyone else that has hurt you throughout your life should be the ones getting punished.. all i hope is that Karma gets them.

Im always here :heart:

[MadManWithaBox]

But I'm not though. God I wish I was.

[Zero0]

No. God is not punishing you. He is testing you, he is trying your patience to see if in the end you are still his follower. Just keep praying and no matter what dont give up because once hope is gone then there is nothing to hope for. You are in my prayers.

[Sith Lord 13]

Matt, you're not being punished. You've just been dealt a shit hand. Yet another one of the ways the universe is just a bitch.The good thing is, it gets better as time goes on. Not a time heals all wounds thing, just that you find ways of dealing with all the shit life flings at you.

[Tristin.]

i personaly do not believe in god, but if you do mat, se it not as him punishing you, but god testing you. you have a strong will and character mat. keep them strong :)
your a good person :)

[eRinKoh89]

i dont like when people think suffering is Gods punishment
im an open theist so i think we are all living in a broken world where despair exists because of the acts and consequences of human interaction and not God's attempt at making you learn a lesson