Kaius
May 12th, 2011, 02:08 PM
Lately I've seen a lot of threads from people that feel like the only option they have is through Suicide. Every time I see one of these threads it honestly tears a hole through my heart because of how many people feel like thats the only light they can see through the darkness.
A lot of you will know me, others will not but I've been fighting the same darkness as you guys have for nearly 5 years now. That darkness has nearly taken over me more times than I care to count and has actually now left me with some permanent health problems for life. But 5 years later I'm still here standing and fighting it and with every day that passes im getting stronger, strong enough to one day beat it. I'm not going to lie to you and say its going to be easy to overcome because I know better than most that it won't be. But every day you guys get through is another battle won and I know despite the little voice in your head telling you its the best option its really not.
Suicide really isn’t the answer. One day something is going to change. It might be tomorrow, it might be next week, next month hell it might even be next year. But It will get better eventually despite what that little voice is telling you, you've just got to want it enough to get there. When you do get there you’ll be rewarded for it and you’ll be a stronger person for it.
When I went through my darkest periods I couldn't see the light, I felt as if i was completely alone and there was nothing that could possibly get better for me - I was a lost cause. Now.. well frankly I'm a different person. In September I will be starting my life dream of working to help animals as a Vet. I have a brilliant (But blind :P) Girlfriend and I have some of the best friends I could ask for. I know now that had I gone through with and succeeded in taking my life I wouldn't have that now, and a big part of me finally feels proud that i'm still standing here today.
The people around you are going to need you as much as you’ve needed them one day. Look at the photos on your wall, or the background on your computer or your phone. Who are those people and how much do they mean to you? Maybe these people have been in your life as long as you can remember.. Maybe they’ve only come into your life just recently. One day you might be saving their lives just like they’ve saved yours. Don’t let that go to waste.
I don't usually make threads like this, but it seemed the best opportunity for me to get a message out there to you guys and to let you know that you're not alone with this. I'm always around if anyone needs someone to talk to, you can find my contact details on my profile or my email address is in my signature. There is a light at the end of the tunnel somewhere, you've just got to keep searching for it because one day you'll look back on this and you'll think to youself "I made the right decision in being here". You can't change your past, i know that as well as anyone. But you can still change your future.
A lot of you will know me, others will not but I've been fighting the same darkness as you guys have for nearly 5 years now. That darkness has nearly taken over me more times than I care to count and has actually now left me with some permanent health problems for life. But 5 years later I'm still here standing and fighting it and with every day that passes im getting stronger, strong enough to one day beat it. I'm not going to lie to you and say its going to be easy to overcome because I know better than most that it won't be. But every day you guys get through is another battle won and I know despite the little voice in your head telling you its the best option its really not.
Suicide really isn’t the answer. One day something is going to change. It might be tomorrow, it might be next week, next month hell it might even be next year. But It will get better eventually despite what that little voice is telling you, you've just got to want it enough to get there. When you do get there you’ll be rewarded for it and you’ll be a stronger person for it.
When I went through my darkest periods I couldn't see the light, I felt as if i was completely alone and there was nothing that could possibly get better for me - I was a lost cause. Now.. well frankly I'm a different person. In September I will be starting my life dream of working to help animals as a Vet. I have a brilliant (But blind :P) Girlfriend and I have some of the best friends I could ask for. I know now that had I gone through with and succeeded in taking my life I wouldn't have that now, and a big part of me finally feels proud that i'm still standing here today.
The people around you are going to need you as much as you’ve needed them one day. Look at the photos on your wall, or the background on your computer or your phone. Who are those people and how much do they mean to you? Maybe these people have been in your life as long as you can remember.. Maybe they’ve only come into your life just recently. One day you might be saving their lives just like they’ve saved yours. Don’t let that go to waste.
I don't usually make threads like this, but it seemed the best opportunity for me to get a message out there to you guys and to let you know that you're not alone with this. I'm always around if anyone needs someone to talk to, you can find my contact details on my profile or my email address is in my signature. There is a light at the end of the tunnel somewhere, you've just got to keep searching for it because one day you'll look back on this and you'll think to youself "I made the right decision in being here". You can't change your past, i know that as well as anyone. But you can still change your future.