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[LingeringLove]

Okay, I'm sorry if this is posted in the wrong section, but idk :/

My best friend told me yesterday that she tryi throwing up because she hates her body, even though guys rave over her and she's skinny as shit. She also told me that if she didn't loose weight she would slit her fingers. I'm not judging her or anything for feeling this way, because I hate my body too, but I don't want her to become a bulimic, and I tried to talk to her about it and tell her that's she's just causing herself more harm, but idk, she kinda breezes me off. :(

She says she hates her body, but then I look at my self and see my legs are two times the size of hers, and that i don't have a flat stomach and I feel fat as fuck. I don't feel pretty even though I told I am, I feel like the people who say it are just trying to make me feel better. I don't know what to do I can't even glance in the mirror without picking out ALL my flaws, and een if I think 'oh my eyes re kinda pretty' I feel vain and guilty. Guys give my best friend all the attention, and the nerdy 12 year olds try to flirt with me.. I feel so gross all the time, I'm constantly sucking in and checking to make sure my makeup is perfect so maybe I'll look pretty. Even ini do feel the slightest bit pretty in the morning, my thoughts get shattered the moment I look at my best friend.

I'm sorry if it all doesnt make sense or I seem stupid, I just really needed to vent, I needed to tell someone..

[Indecision]

Yeh, it makes a lot of sense. Sometimes you can get friends like this, who lie. Okay maybe she's not but, my friend told me she was anorexic to show off, but they weren't, someone else told me they slit, and they didn't. I used to make myself sick, I hated my body. And I still do, I guess. I got all the nerdy attention, but if i'm honest, now I look back I used to be a cow towards them. Telling them I never ever want to speak to them again, it's horrible.
I hate my body too. I know, people say i'm beautiful, they say i'm thin etc. But I feel so horrible in my own skin. My face is disgustingly ugly and I always feel so heavy and fat. However, I do so much. I spend hours in the morning getting ready, straightening my hair etc etc, and after all of that I feel just about normalish.
It's just some unfortunate girls like us that get it I guess, all the pressure, all the amazing friends. Make us feel like shit. In the meantime, try and find something else to concentrate on, like i managed to teach myself the guitar etc. Staystrong.xx

[bambino]

i have amazingly pretty friends too. And always compare :| it doesn't do anything for the confidence department! and the truth with comparison is, we always exaggerate other peoples good points, and degrade our own-so we can never really have an objective [which basically means unbias and accurate] view of ourselves.

Your friend is obviously unhappy with her body, regardless that people think shes stunning right? so have you considered that like her, you're beautiful but can't recognise it in yourself?

I have BDD [made a thread about it not long ago on here, if you don't know what it is- wikipedia is your friend!] and i know i am hideous, my counsellor says its a delusion that i've held onto. Which kinda makes me want to hit her ¬¬
Its like: i know what i look like GAH i'm not blind.


That besides I'm sure you're gorgeous, and real beauty comes from inside. Cliché but true.
message me if you want hun
xx

[LingeringLove]

Yeh, it makes a lot of sense. Sometimes you can get friends like this, who lie. Okay maybe she's not but, my friend told me she was anorexic to show off, but they weren't, someone else told me they slit, and they didn't. I used to make myself sick, I hated my body. And I still do, I guess. I got all the nerdy attention, but if i'm honest, now I look back I used to be a cow towards them. Telling them I never ever want to speak to them again, it's horrible.
I hate my body too. I know, people say i'm beautiful, they say i'm thin etc. But I feel so horrible in my own skin. My face is disgustingly ugly and I always feel so heavy and fat. However, I do so much. I spend hours in the morning getting ready, straightening my hair etc etc, and after all of that I feel just about normalish.
It's just some unfortunate girls like us that get it I guess, all the pressure, all the amazing friends. Make us feel like shit. In the meantime, try and find something else to concentrate on, like i managed to teach myself the guitar etc. Staystrong.xx

Your response helped me so much :$ and Its just a coincidence, but we have the same name, aha. Yeah, but my best friend actually is ( I dong blame you for suspecting that she may have lied, on of my other friends did that.) and it terrifies me that I'll end up like that too ):