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derkderpderp
May 11th, 2011, 09:11 PM
Ok so heres the deal:

Im 17 and a half, Im a recovering anorexic, i was clinically diagnosed as anorexic when i was in Year 10, so when i was around 14 (due to my birthday i was 14 in year 10, 15 in year 11 etc), it got pretty bad then, i dropped from a 30" waist to around about 22/24, so i had to get my jeans altered from a shop because they just wouldnt fit, i lost around 77lbs in around 8 months of barely eating and the effects of it lasted until i got into my AS year in college, so just over 2 years.
When i was in AS i found that i was hungrier more often as i had to walk further to get to college from one bus stop to the next, i also had to trudge through our huge college to get to different lessons etc etc, so i ate and ate and my weight increased a fair amount over my AS year. So from year 10 i was originally around 130lbs, which went down to and fluctuated around 53lbs, which i maintained for a short while, i had to keep going to the doctors for regular check ups etc and they put me on weird liquid food supplements because i just didnt really eat, and in AS i gained around 40lbs. But last week Monday i weighed 97lbs, and i didnt think much of it at the time but i stopped eating, and that was it, but since then ive found that im only eating once a day, and thats in the evening when im at home, otherwise i wont eat, i.e in college i know im hungry but i just dont want to eat, theres no idea going through my head like 'oh im fat and i need to lose weight', ive just stopped eating properly.
Does this mean im maybe becoming anorexic again, and should i go and speak to my doctor about it?
eek sorry this was all kinda long winded.

Fiction
May 12th, 2011, 05:54 PM
Well i guess you need to look back at what those thoughts where that you had back then, and see if they're the same.

If there's no real reason that you're not eating, then maybe you can stop yourself relapsing? I guess that's the test of whether you need a doctor or not. If you can make yourself eat then there isn't a problem, if you get that feeling of just not being able to eat because your mid won't let you (i'm sure you know what i'm on about) then maybe it's time to see a doctor again.

derkderpderp
May 13th, 2011, 09:32 AM
Thank you.
Everytime i try eating, or i make my resolve to eat, i see the food, i see the plate, it looks huge, and i start feeling queasy sometimes, otherwise when im about to eat i start feeling really down, almost guilty and i just lose my appetite?
I think i will go to see my doctor but idk, this just sucks

Fiction
May 14th, 2011, 10:06 AM
I know it does :hug:

Going to the doctors can't do any harm can it? So it's worth a try.